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Meaninglessness
Existence is absolutely meaningless
- Nov 12, 2022
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It feels like that I have outlived my own health. Time destroys everything. I hate aging and the decay of the body. The rest of my life will only be meaningless suffering due to chronic health problems. In civilization we live protected in houses without enemies and the healthcare cures diseases. It is no wonder that some people live 100 years. But we will lose everything in life with the passage of time - our appearance, our health and our friends. The only benefits of aging are life experience and knowledge. I have to choose between continue living in meaninglessness and pain or I can shorten my life. I can´t continue to live like this until I reach old age - there will be too many years of suffering. If I had been a dog or a cat, I would have been euthanazied. Our pets are euthanazied for considerably less health problems. I am only alive because I am a human. I think that in 2022, human life is valued too much. I am ready to travel into the unknown - death, which will be a travel of a lifetime. I can´t afford physician-assisted suicide, so I have to find another way.
I have been planning for my own death and to reduce the risk of failure, I have written documents with instructions on exactly what to do. But the fear of death and the fear of the death process are in the way. Moreover, there is almost always some doubt as to whether one should live one more day or not. A successful suicide requires either careful planning or good luck. Most suicide attempts fail because it is difficult to kill oneself and some people don´t know how to do it. But it comes to a point with each method where no one survives. I get jealous of people who succeed with suicide, but when someone tries to end his life, he can´t know if he will succeed, he takes a chance. Maybe suicide is like skydiving - you have to be very brave to dare to do it.
Life is a miracle! An evolution from single-celled life in water to humans is very complicated. I believe that there is something very intelligent behind the origin of life. The newborn baby explores the surroundings with joy. But life can also be unfair. Genetic predisposition creates the human being which the child can´t do anything about. The society´s rules are tough: education, economics, work until retirement age and die from old age. But not everyone can handle these tough demands and will therefore end up outside the community. It is no wonder that homelessness and loneliness are increasing. However, these problems would never arise if people lived in nature, where we belong.
If you think about it, life is not only a miracle, but also a prison. From the day you were born, you are forced to live with your body and follow made up laws and regulations. You didn´t create yourself but you are stuck with yourself. You have not chosen to exist but you are expected to suffer as long as possible before you die. You are a prisoner in the prison of life. The prolonging of human life is not for everyone - health problems can occur at any age. The longer you live, the more broken the body becomes - no one can escape the ailments in old age - and your prison sentence will become worse. Should I be forced to live in a prison when I have committed no crime? When life is a prison, death is freedom. No one will be hurt by my death, on the contrary, my death will be something postive. All humans will be dead and forgotten in a distant future and the Earth and the Universe will also die, which means that my suffering is completely meaningless and unnecessary.
I have been planning for my own death and to reduce the risk of failure, I have written documents with instructions on exactly what to do. But the fear of death and the fear of the death process are in the way. Moreover, there is almost always some doubt as to whether one should live one more day or not. A successful suicide requires either careful planning or good luck. Most suicide attempts fail because it is difficult to kill oneself and some people don´t know how to do it. But it comes to a point with each method where no one survives. I get jealous of people who succeed with suicide, but when someone tries to end his life, he can´t know if he will succeed, he takes a chance. Maybe suicide is like skydiving - you have to be very brave to dare to do it.
Life is a miracle! An evolution from single-celled life in water to humans is very complicated. I believe that there is something very intelligent behind the origin of life. The newborn baby explores the surroundings with joy. But life can also be unfair. Genetic predisposition creates the human being which the child can´t do anything about. The society´s rules are tough: education, economics, work until retirement age and die from old age. But not everyone can handle these tough demands and will therefore end up outside the community. It is no wonder that homelessness and loneliness are increasing. However, these problems would never arise if people lived in nature, where we belong.
If you think about it, life is not only a miracle, but also a prison. From the day you were born, you are forced to live with your body and follow made up laws and regulations. You didn´t create yourself but you are stuck with yourself. You have not chosen to exist but you are expected to suffer as long as possible before you die. You are a prisoner in the prison of life. The prolonging of human life is not for everyone - health problems can occur at any age. The longer you live, the more broken the body becomes - no one can escape the ailments in old age - and your prison sentence will become worse. Should I be forced to live in a prison when I have committed no crime? When life is a prison, death is freedom. No one will be hurt by my death, on the contrary, my death will be something postive. All humans will be dead and forgotten in a distant future and the Earth and the Universe will also die, which means that my suffering is completely meaningless and unnecessary.
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