I saw the sad love posts starting to show already. This holiday can make a lot of people very sad. It's always nice to know that you're not alone when in pain.
It's February 14 Sunday this year. I think it might be just an American holiday. I don't know which countries might have adopted it.
It's actually a thing in my country. Strangely, I don't feel bad about it anymore. I don't even remember at what point or time frame I stopped feeling bad about it. I've had a few sexual experiences in a dream when I was questioning my sexuality... Virginity isn't such a bother for me anymore... I'd consider having sex as a ritual for developing attachment maybe. (Not sure if it's a good idea.) The pleasure feels to me too fleeting and too costly to be used solely for recreational purposes.
Iirc Japan actually has two Valentines Days, one where guys give women their gifts and one day for the reverse. No wonder they're all lonely there too.
Women give men gifts on 14th feb and men give women gifts on 14th march. Pretty awkward tradition.
Japan can be a hard place to live. The work ethic expectation is suicidal in itself. Finding love is hard anywhere though. Being and feeling lonely and or unwanted can really hurt.
Wonder if it was planned that way so that men in Japan have a whole month to plan how to top whatever gift they were given by women.
Or it gives them a month to leave before returning the favor.
I don't get how people would like those archetypal gifting flowers. They're basically flower cadavers. Maybe present a potted flower or something?
In South Korea, there is a "holiday" for single persons called "Black Day" that is observed on the 14th of April.
You found an old message or a new one was sent? I can relate to the Doll craze. One Just for laughs but also it's accepted now so you wouldn't get as many stares as you would think. In the states they would call it nuts but if someone was happy with a doll then who would care about another's opinion. I would probly get 3 so they would have someone to talk to while I was at work.
I found an old one by accidentally clicking on conversations instead of alerts.
Yeah that can hurt. Brings everything right back. Its like you want to forget but you want to remember at the same time. It's hard to figure out which is best. Moving on it not easy sometimes.
So true. I wish there was a better solution than just waiting. It's too goddamn slow. I've only ever fallen hard for four people and so far I've only gotten over one of them and that took me nine whole years. I don't have time to wait nine more freaking years to have to endure this misery...
Love Will come back around if your looking for it or just let it come on its own. I get attached too easy to people. Then I dont realise what I have. At the same time I'm suicidal and just depressed all the time but never toward my lover. That weight can be hard on them I guess. Being alone kills inside. Like You feel like you were just garbage to them somehow. Nobody knows for sure how to get over a heartache from a good lover. My uncle said time heals all wounds. He Puerto Rican so he sounds funny when he says it. But time doesnt heal all wounds. Time helps but there seems to be something else missing when it comes to healing. I try to shake it off and think about other things to get my mind off it when im smart enough to remind myself that I'm "tunneling" in a sad thought. Sometimes bad thoughts are all we have. It doesnt help that I put 3 love songs on my repeat that remind me.
I think for me, the missing element is actually being aware of who to move on to. So far no such person even exists in my life that I'd even want to move onto. After all, why should I move on from where I'm standing if I have no idea where I'm going to move to? Some people can rely on blind faith to move on but I can't.
So how long have you been single? Do you want to find another lover/GF? I'm assuming your looking for a girlfriend. Mine left recently which made me Dred today for months and then today has just been the worst. I'm mad, im crying, I'm hurt, I'm umbarassed, I'm mad at myself, blah blah. I think honestly I might CTB. If I dont I dont know what will become of me this next month or to. I feel im babbling now. My day was busy with thoughts so dont feel like I left you hanging. Im Just trying to keep calm and have a mellow head and it not working at all. I just ate some food and some booze so I'm a little better now. The shivers of stress have been coming and going. Heartache plus stress is a powder kegg
