
Lost Magic
Illuminated
- May 5, 2020
- 3,201
I can't believe I got N after all these years of acquiring other stuff to kill myself. Like some of you good people on here, I was going with the SN method. My mother died terribly from cancer and those images of her suffering have stuck with me for years. I wish she had have been able to acquire something like N and I feel guilty that she didn't have access to it like I do. If only I had that knowledge and was the person I was now, she and I could have went out together. Peacefully. I died when she did anyway, and I am now nothing more than a living empty vessel of regret, sadness and guilt. I became a member of the dignity of dying movement in the UK but it isn't enough. People who are terminally ill and have chronic physical and mental health problems are being denied access to peaceful methods of dying. Yes, there are some places like Dignitas and Pegasos but they are not accessible to everybody and cost a fortune. It's just not right that we have to beg to die. If we have the compassion to put a dog (incredible species btw) to sleep then we should have the same compassion for humans as well. Change is too slow in this world and it hurts to know that. It really hurts. 