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GirlOfThought06

GirlOfThought06

autistic by the grace of god
Nov 10, 2025
35
I've reached another dead end in life it feels like. I have people who care about me and they try to help me but it's futile because of how severe the wound is.
Thing is, I can't bring myself to end my life because of the guilt. I'm only alive because I can't bring myself to hurt others with my own suicide. But if it looks like a freak accident, maybe that'll be less painful for them if they believed it wasn't suicide? Is there any advice for how to do commit suicide that doesn't look like suicide, or how to get over the guilty feeling and just to stop being a pussy
 
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Chris6666

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Jun 11, 2026
44
I can only answer in my own opinion:
When I do ctb I don't care much about other "feelings".
I do ctb, cause I have so much pain in me, I can't handle it any more.
Because there are people around you who care about you (and you obvios care about them), I would suggest, you overthink this.
If you REALY want it, you dont care about it and dont feel like a pussy... You just make it...
I think, you are not ready for this (absolute end).
Sorry, just my 2 cents...
 
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puppyboy

nblm || bpd+did
Apr 9, 2026
77
the only things i can think of are illicit drug overdose perhaps, or "accidentally" slipping and hitting your head on something? and drowning too i think.
 
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boilingfishcakes

boilingfishcakes

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Jun 14, 2026
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I've reached another dead end in life it feels like. I have people who care about me and they try to help me but it's futile because of how severe the wound is.
Thing is, I can't bring myself to end my life because of the guilt. I'm only alive because I can't bring myself to hurt others with my own suicide. But if it looks like a freak accident, maybe that'll be less painful for them if they believed it wasn't suicide? Is there any advice for how to do commit suicide that doesn't look like suicide, or how to get over the guilty feeling and just to stop being a pussy
Understandable, suicide can feel shameful for some people. While I don't have any good methods I can give you, you should really digest why this brings you a lot of guilt. If it didn't hurt a single person, would you still be here?
 
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EDDIESTERS

eddie
Dec 22, 2025
29
if commiting suicide is harming you emotionally (obviously will harm you physically...) then it is better to wait it out, as all of us will eventually die. suicide is just a way to speed things up. on the other hand, if you die, why will you care about how that effects others? you are dead by then.
 
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ceriseange♡

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Nov 3, 2023
66
the only things i can think of are illicit drug overdose perhaps, or "accidentally" slipping and hitting your head on something? and drowning too i think.
I've honestly considered the first one a lot, but the idea of getting caught / arrested would just make everything so much worse
 

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