ways to avoid therapist abuse when desperate? who else might intervene and listen well?

[Ah.ow]

desperate situations needed quick, deep reactions. I thought people go to therapists because noone else will take the time or energy, even though therapists mostly don't either? but I am afraid I'm headed toward and sinking in a therapy relationship. my desperation overpowers my awareness, experience, etc.

if I couldn't meet someone safe, getting out of the therapy relationship seems realistically impossible. is this the start of something that will keep hurting me? it keeps doing that, but my recognition doesn't matter, other than that I can say my needs keep putting me in painful situations. maybe including this, with asking a question I don't feel ok to, asking it in a rushed unmatured way, and asking it outside in public.

I am a fool, I feel more foolish than the people who hurt me and others. (sorry I am cutoff now and not saying enough, the literal bus came haha)

 

[enough of this]

It's so hard to find people who listen well. Most people are so distracted by their own issues, they're not even available for active listening. Many will pretend to listen just out of courtesy. But that doesn't mean they're really there. It's just a show.