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_Minsk

death: the cure for life
Dec 9, 2019
1,133
There were times it seemed to be good- I even felt lucky… an illusion, and imperfect but lovely nonetheless, how fast things can collapse…
im in love with your description, it perfectly describes how it feels for me
There were times it seemed to be good- I even felt lucky… an illusion, and imperfect but lovely nonetheless, how fast things can collapse…
im in love with your description, it perfectly describes how it feels for me
 
Painless_end

Painless_end

Life is too difficult for me
Oct 11, 2019
794
Only very early during some periods of growth and independence that I experienced.

But later when I grew up (read : started working) I missed on doing something that was unfortunately critical towards my future growth and now I am doomed forever.
 
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przeciwwymiotne

Be rude to me at all times, I don't deserve kindne
Jun 27, 2022
360
There were times it seemed to be good- I even felt lucky… an illusion, and imperfect but lovely nonetheless, how fast things can collapse…
My life was good at one point, turns out it was all denial thought
My life was good at one point, turns out it was all denial thought
I was happy in childhood 0-11

And then late teens 17-18
 
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Hope:-)

Enlightened
Jul 3, 2022
1,120
Yeah, my life used to be great. It's so strange to me how many things have changed.
 
Superdeterminist

Superdeterminist

Enlightened
Apr 5, 2020
1,876
It was only really good in rare, brief moments, maybe like 5% of all my time spent alive.
 
HopefulButPrepared

HopefulButPrepared

Experienced
Jun 22, 2022
247
only when I had my head buried in the sand, ignoring the fact that my life wasn't really mine - I was living with my parents and deluding myself that their resources and house was mine, when really I had nothing - 4 years ago I started saving up to buy a cheap house somewhere a bit run down by the coast - it didn't matter to me as long as it was MY house in MY town of choosing - I felt like I was building MY own life at last - then the chronic pain developed, and now all my savings for the house, which was a lot, are just being spent on pain killers, and now CTB ingredients. I left it too late. It was MY fault. Don't bury your head in the sand. Act now, build your ark, before the flood comes, because it's coming!
 
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KiraLittleOwl

Lost in transition
Jan 25, 2019
1,083
Never. Only specks of good days.
It's so unfair... I just wanted piece of happiness (((
My unhappiness is a cruel combo of being transgender, childhood trauma caused mental illness and bad luck.
I tried to make myself a better life but failed miserably.
 
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Zerengin96

Student
Jun 14, 2022
126
Nah, life is to be endured not enjoyed
 
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Ligottian

Paragon
Dec 19, 2021
965
My first eight years of life were almost Edenic.
 
Euthanza

Euthanza

Self Righteous Suicide
Jun 9, 2022
1,446
For some people yes, not me.
Deluded at my childhood and young age, I think I lived good on average, then collapsed at 27 when realities hit my brain and perception of things, it sucks
 
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Shrike94

Member
Jul 7, 2022
39
yes I was doing well mentally and physically and enjoying many things like reading playing piano before my brain got blown up by radiation
 
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nohopeleftanymoreno

Member
Jul 9, 2022
34
I guess for maybe 2 years of my life where I didn't have to worry about money or even work. Now that I have to, I want to die. Work is a deal-breaker to life for me.
 
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outatime_85

Warlock
May 17, 2022
789
Life was pretty decent when I was in a crib and wore diapers.

When my family decided to release me among the wolves that roamed my environment, with no physical training or understanding of that environment, and no one to turn to or learn from (everyone was busy), I had to improvise.

That did not work out for the best, to say the least, and things went south real fast.
 
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xo777

are we almost there?
Apr 5, 2022
170
No not really. I had happy moments but not a happy life.
 
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AliceTheGoon

Specialist
Jul 1, 2022
399
Looking back yes. But I have never been able to appreciate the good things in the moment. And there were a lot of good things.
 
Eternal🌈Rainbow

Eternal🌈Rainbow

♡ ✨ ♡ 🌸 ♡ 💖 ♡ 🌈 ♡
Apr 2, 2022
240
It was. I've suffered very much and have been through things children shouldn't have to go through (though I'm actually lucky since there are cases way worse than mine), but life was manageable, livable, even enjoyable often or from time to time. I didn't ever think seriously about taking my own life, despite the very rough times.

But now?? I sometimes can't even believe my life has become this unbearable nightmare.
 
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Sakura94

empty
Nov 26, 2020
673
I liked it when I was a kid despite horrendous bullying. I liked the summer holidays and Xmas.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,824
It was better than good.....for decades........and then January came
 
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Job Joad

Member
Jul 2, 2022
41
Things were great as a child. then my parents started having problems and they got divorced. I started to have problems and my world has been one continuous downward slope since then.
 
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splashofvanilla

Member
Jun 29, 2022
43
If we count true childhood then yes from 0-10 years i was happy

But things change and since then i thought i was happy at time but now i see them as tainted memories i always hid my sadness behind a smile so now i no longer recall when i was truly happy and when i was a mask
 
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