Venting was i a victim i cannot tell

[user933957]

when i was younger, my step sister would sometimes force me to "play". she would get ontop of me and pretend to hump me, and stuff like that. she is a victim and she was sa'd when she was younger before she did stuff to me, but i genuinely can't remember anything from when i was younger. i can only remember how she would convince me to kiss her and she would do suggestive stuff, i am younger than her by a year and i was 8 or 9 when she did that stuff to me. i can't remember anything, just that i became insanely hypersexual after that. i always have hated physical touch unless i start it first, and therapists have asked if i ever was sa'd due to what i would tell them and what i would say. i am so confused, i have never spoken about this to anyone else and i have a normal relationship with my step sister now, we have never talked about it but i still feel awkward around her sometimes. what is it? i can't tell and i dont want to tell anyone, just incase im over thinking

 

[peerlesscucumber]

Yes, from what you describe it's a clear case of COCSA (Child on Child SA).
Maybe your sister didn't mean to do any wrong, but this is still SA and you were a victim.
I truly hope you can find the help you might need to heal

 

[user933957]

Yes, from what you describe it's a clear case of COCSA (Child on Child SA).
Maybe your sister didn't mean to do any wrong, but this is still SA and you were a victim.
I truly hope you can find the help you might need to heal

thank you so much. i will try to get help, i appreciate it

 

[TheEndofAllThings]

I'm sorry for what happened to you. I wouldn't minimize it, you definitely seem to carry trauma from this experience. Since your sister was also young and a victim of SA she probably didn't fully understand what she was doing, but it hurt you nonetheless. I encourage you to speak to your therapist about this, it's definitely something that needs to be discussed so you can heal.

 

[user933957]

I'm sorry for what happened to you. I wouldn't minimize it, you definitely seem to carry trauma from this experience. Since your sister was also young and a victim of SA she probably didn't fully understand what she was doing, but it hurt you nonetheless. I encourage you to speak to your therapist about this, it's definitely something that needs to be discussed so you can heal.

thank you, i am planning on telling my therapist, thank you so much

 

[sos]

sounds like she was experimenting on you, so yeah, you were the victim

 

[Edistrying]

What You went through has a name & it would be appropriate to talk about it with you therapist, two of my cousins did the same to me (2-3 years older) & even if you dont want it but affect you of diferrent ways.

 

[untothedepths]

it sounds like your sister was not properly seeing a specialist...so she started acting out towards you which is absolutely horrendous. im so sorry that happened to you, you are a victim, it doesnt matter if they are an adult or child.