traingirl
I was good. I was really good.
- Oct 7, 2025
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I was doing good until my mom's death anniversary came up and my favorite person (I have bpd) moved away. I had tapered my antidepressant and was feeling better and then it seems like six months out I've been hit with protracted withdrawals. I have horrible intrusive thoughts and anger that are new and not like me at all. I'm sure some of you remember me. I at least wanted to try to get better and for awhile, it seemed worth it. I started back my antidepressant two days ago and I know it's clouding my judgement a little until I adjust and I should give it time but now it and the seroquel don't seem to mesh and I get body jerks trying to sleep on my dose which led me to not sleep almost at all last night. When I did, I had horrifying dreams about my dead mom screaming out to me. I've sensitized my nervous system by dropping to 5mg of my antidepressant and then trying to go back up. And then also tapering seroquel in the process. I feel like the meds have made me an entirely different person that can't exactly be fixed anymore. I found DSL very easily with some light searching (can't believe I did it on three hours or less of sleep but I did). I'm not in the right frame of mind right now so I am going to give it a day or two to purchase if I decide so.
