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CrushedHopes

CrushedHopes

Ex-narcissist that is looking to end himself soon
Nov 3, 2019
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I get this is pro-choice- but I kind of thought that sometimes it is ok to just look at someones situation as see if maybe there angle- not to dissuade them from their final choice- but just to ensure that it is really their ONLY real choice now. Apologise for any offense caused. I can see you situation has caused you alot of distress- one that you are not seeking advice on-but that you just wanted to share as your reason to ctb.
It is okay to ask me if there are any other options to fix the situation - but my answer will always be the same - there isn't. Thank you for acknowledging that my predicament has caused me a lot of distress. I am not looking to fail in CTBing when the materials arrive. I just want out, period.
 
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WhiteDespair

WhiteDespair

The Temporary Problem is Life
Oct 24, 2019
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I can tell you for a fact that I had it coming and that I had been given numerous chances to rectify my toxic behavior before I was ousted. It's all me. In this case, what I did online has also affected real life opportunities. It's all over for me.

I believe you. It's relatable.
 
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MeltingHeart

MeltingHeart

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Sep 9, 2019
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I can tell you for a fact that I had it coming and that I had been given numerous chances to rectify my toxic behavior before I was ousted. It's all me. In this case, what I did online has also affected real life opportunities. It's all over for me.
I understand- its hard when something that meant so much to you is no longer possible to obtain. I guess for others, I always still have a little hope that there might be a way out of their predicament somehow & that they might still be able to go on to have a nice future & some good times in this wide world that we live on, but I suppose it is not always possible. Ive always usually been good at helping others- way more than myself! gdlk
 
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ImmaMacGuffin

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Jul 9, 2019
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Okay, you don't seem to get this, so let me make this *very* clear to you, and I hope you get it through your head this time. What you perceive to be "fact" is absolutely and undoubtedly wrong. I shall speak for myself and I will hear no ifs, ands or buts about it. It's my choice. And yes, I have analyzed my own situation and concluded that there is no fixing it, based on my observations on what other people in that community and industry have to say about it.

So here goes:

I am not looking to CTB because I got banned from some niche forum that has no impact on my career choice. I want to CTB because my real name and face have been doxed, and I have been universally blacklisted by EVERYONE in the voice acting community and industry, which basically means that I have ZERO chance of pursuing voiceover professionally (not even on a hobbyist level, given my grave offenses). I can NEVER voice act, write scripts, direct or do anything related to that community AGAIN. Not for the rest of my life!

Now do you get it? Stop trivializing my predicament. I'm not that fragile - getting banned from a forum or two isn't gonna make me wanna off myself. Okay? Okay. Good. I hope you'll stop twisting around the facts. Thank you.

Okay, from your postings I can surmise that you are very intelligent, resourceful, and, given the community you were exiled from, you must be a creative by definition. You are also rude and combative and, I expect, possibly considers his loss to this particular community more monumental than the group does (which I get, cuz the world never deserved the knowledge obtained through my ground-breaking experimentation with exposition, lol). You are an artist, noone can tell you you cannot *work* as one. Yes, they can make it impossible for you to make a living within that specific "job" but they cannot take your vocation from you. History has proven many POS' (your words) have not only been successful artists but influential beyond their mediums. I think you have a great shot. :P

As a, somewhat, successful animator in the fine arts arena, I totally appreciate your consideration that anime/manga genre is your life's work. I mean no belittlement as to the gravity of your situation and your devastation because of the blacklisting...I get it.

Try another genre, invent a sub-genre, you're a creative, that's what we do, push the boundaries of definition.
 
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Essence

Essence

Nothingness is the beginning of Everything.
Nov 7, 2019
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It is okay to ask me if there are any other options to fix the situation - but my answer will always be the same - there isn't. Thank you for acknowledging that my predicament has caused me a lot of distress. I am not looking to fail in CTBing when the materials arrive. I just want out, period.
I totally get it @CrushedHopes. It's relative. I understand that to you, the situation your in, is a hopeless one. I have been there and am there now. I know to some, my situation and reasoning for ctb would appear questionable at best. That's okay. They are not walking in my shoes, nor do I expect them to. I liken this perception to ' one mans rubbish is another mans gold'. All perception, and it's such a unique perspective that we all have, on life and it's curve balls. What ever you decide, I wish you peace :heart:
 
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CrushedHopes

CrushedHopes

Ex-narcissist that is looking to end himself soon
Nov 3, 2019
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Okay, from your postings I can surmise that you are very intelligent, resourceful, and, given the community you were exiled from, you must be a creative by definition. You are also rude and combative and, I expect, possibly considers his loss to this particular community more monumental than the group does (which I get, cuz the world never deserved the knowledge obtained through my ground-breaking experimentation with exposition, lol). You are an artist, noone can tell you you cannot *work* as one. Yes, they can make it impossible for you to make a living within that specific "job" but they cannot take your vocation from you. History has proven many POS' (your words) have not only been successful artists but influential beyond their mediums. I think you have a great shot. :P

As a, somewhat, successful animator in the fine arts arena, I totally appreciate your consideration that anime/manga genre is your life's work. I mean no belittlement as to the gravity of your situation and your devastation because of the blacklisting...I get it.

Try another genre, invent a sub-genre, you're a creative, that's what we do, push the boundaries of definition.
I am not intelligent. Clearly, I didn't think things through before I decided to ax that pro VA's Wikipedia article. If I were smart, I wouldn't have been ousted in the first place. I also wouldn't know how to go about "redefining" the genre/workforce if I'm not even allowed to be in it. Thanks for the suggestions, and thanks for acknowledging that I once had the skillset to thrive in the field, but it's all over for me, and denying it is pointless. This is coming from someone that is very headstrong and tries to find other solutions before they quit. Please wish me peace - I am not long for this world.
 
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ImmaMacGuffin

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I am not intelligent. Clearly, I didn't think things through before I decided to ax that pro VA's Wikipedia article. If I were smart, I wouldn't have been ousted in the first place. I also wouldn't know how to go about "redefining" the genre/workforce if I'm not even allowed to be in it. Thanks for the suggestions, and thanks for acknowledging that I once had the skillset to thrive in the field, but it's all over for me, and denying it is pointless. This is coming from someone that is very headstrong and tries to find other solutions before they quit. Please wish me peace - I am not long for this world.

I do wish you peace.
 
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LMFAO FOCKERS

Lost in Aokigahara
May 26, 2019
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I am not intelligent. Clearly, I didn't think things through before I decided to ax that pro VA's Wikipedia article. If I were smart, I wouldn't have been ousted in the first place. I also wouldn't know how to go about "redefining" the genre/workforce if I'm not even allowed to be in it. Thanks for the suggestions, and thanks for acknowledging that I once had the skillset to thrive in the field, but it's all over for me, and denying it is pointless. This is coming from someone that is very headstrong and tries to find other solutions before they quit. Please wish me peace - I am not long for this world.

I hate to beat a dead horse but is it possible to:

  1. disappear for 2-5 years
  2. go to deep therapy
  3. write a long letter of apology and amends to the organizations and one especially to the VA
  4. hold some volunteer VA teaching courses to show you are giving back and making amends.
  5. Come back with letters of support from reputable individuals citing all of the volunteer work, your character, and that you're a changed man, etc.
Hell Charlie Sheen was an a-hole but everyone gave him a second chance. He even has women lined up to have unprotected sex with him despite his health challenges???
 
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CrushedHopes

CrushedHopes

Ex-narcissist that is looking to end himself soon
Nov 3, 2019
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I hate to beat a dead horse but is it possible to:

  1. disappear for 2-5 years
  2. go to deep therapy
  3. write a long letter of apology and amends to the organizations and one especially to the VA
  4. hold some volunteer VA teaching courses to show you are giving back and making amends.
  5. Come back with letters of support from reputable individuals citing all of the volunteer work, your character, and that you're a changed man, etc.
Hell Charlie Sheen was an a-hole but everyone gave him a second chance. He even has women lined up to have unprotected sex with him despite his health challenges???
Even if that were possible, I'm not even sure how I would go about doing that. As far as I am concerned, people just want me gone, so I'll do just that (literally).
 
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ImmaMacGuffin

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Jul 9, 2019
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Even if that were possible, I'm not even sure how I would go about doing that. As far as I am concerned, people just want me gone, so I'll do just that (literally).
(Please take this with love)
WhyTF would you want to give 'people' what you perceive them to 'want'. Not about them. Redemption ain't just a town where Ace Hanlon played his last hand.
 
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CaptainT

CaptainT

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Nov 1, 2019
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This forum in particular is not a place to be mudslinging about reasons to / to not CTB. The original post is about keeping an eye on scammers. Take the drama to DMs or, preferably, let's stop it totally. This community is about supporting those who are hurting badly.
 
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CrushedHopes

CrushedHopes

Ex-narcissist that is looking to end himself soon
Nov 3, 2019
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This forum in particular is not a place to be mudslinging about reasons to / to not CTB. The original post is about keeping an eye on scammers. Take the drama to DMs or, preferably, let's stop it totally. This community is about supporting those who are hurting badly.
Good idea.

Guys, if you wanna discuss my reasons for CTB any further, just hit me up via DM.
 
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LMFAO FOCKERS

Lost in Aokigahara
May 26, 2019
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Even if that were possible, I'm not even sure how I would go about doing that. As far as I am concerned, people just want me gone, so I'll do just that (literally).

It's possible and the fact that you're 22 and can claim that you were immature and suffering from some "deep seeded anger/self hate" issues is the sort of story old-timers will buy with the right support actions. The fact that you haven't considered this as a possibility shows you did not exhaust your options. If the goal is to get back in, its attainable (though not immediately). I'm sorry but as long as you didnt rape or kill anyone and you're young enough to be seen as young dumb and stupid there is a chance. Its up to you though...



This forum in particular is not a place to be mudslinging about reasons to / to not CTB. The original post is about keeping an eye on scammers. Take the drama to DMs or, preferably, let's stop it totally. This community is about supporting those who are hurting badly.

I'm not judging anyone. I'm just challenging his assumption that all hope is lost. At the end of the day he can do what he wants (and he will anyway b/c nothing we say matters, only the story he believes for himself.)


Anyway @CrushedHopes DM me if you wanna chat more.
 
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SECTS777

SECTS777

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Sep 23, 2019
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I only read the first 5 pages. Interesting to see people surprised at Rachel74 being a scammer. I guess when I saw someone with 1,800 posts in 2 months being banned, I think their whole motive could've been to appear trustworthy and recognisable by posting at that frequency to make it easier to scam.
 
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BPD_LE

BPD_LE

The Queen of Meme
Aug 11, 2019
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I only read the first 5 pages. Interesting to see people surprised at Rachel74 being a scammer. I guess when I saw someone with 1,800 posts in 2 months being banned, I think their whole motive could've been to appear trustworthy and recognisable by posting at that frequency to make it easier to scam.
But then some of us are on here throughout the day, every day, because we feel we have nowhere else to go, no one else to talk to and the post score simply mounts up. Doesn't automatically make us disingenuous members because we are more active than others.
 
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Stan

Factoid Hunter
Aug 29, 2019
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But then some of us are on here throughout the day, every day, because we feel we have nowhere else to go, no one else to talk to and the post score simply mounts up. Doesn't automatically make us disingenuous members because we are more active than others.
I agree with that for some strange reason
 
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SECTS777

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But then some of us are on here throughout the day, every day, because we feel we have nowhere else to go, no one else to talk to and the post score simply mounts up. Doesn't automatically make us disingenuous members because we are more active than others.

Yes, you are right. Can't discount that, either. :)
 
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