WARNING for UK SN users

[Wilt-On-High]

SN is quite stable and maintains its purity for a long time, it's not a minute by minute thing.

Yeah but I opened it for something and then I closed it and now I'm in this dodgy situation

 

[ignorableaurochs]

If Border Force intercepted your package, presumably at the border, why didn't they confiscate it there and prevent delivery?

I'm sorry but this is a very hard story to believe… I've worked for emergency services…
You had a package delivered in January & I'm to believe 4 months later a police crew show up with ambulance crew in tow just in case today was the day the SI thoughts from 4 months ago were winning.
Both the Police & Ambulance services are stretched to the limits. If you'd said the police had shown up for a welfare check by themselves, that I would have believed…Normal practice is for them to then call for Ambo backup if they require it.

I have no idea, it was equally surprising to me as I said in the thread earlier. I don't understand how it got through the border, but they had photos etc of my parcel from Royal Mail

You can believe me, or not. My photos got taken down bc of identifying info even though I censored surnames but I would even be happy to DM them. This happened and while I do understand the skepticism, this traumatic fucking event has made me feel sick and unsafe for days and I am finding it harder to cope with being invalidated on the only fucking forum where I can actually talk about suicide without being banned

Lots of people have said the ambulance was improbable too but all I can say is that they were there. It was a confusing, scary day and I did not understand what was going on. I will lay out for you what happened.

Order of events was:

- I was woken by my partner who told me police were here to speak about 'a parcel that had been ordered for suicide pacts'
- I go to the living room and two male officers are there, I ask my partner to leave the room, I have no idea if anyone else is in the house
- They talk to me and I admit ordering it but I lie about it arriving. They ask if I want to speak to MHAS. I say it's pointless and they already know I am suicidal anyway. They made me call anyway which was pointless. This is where they tell me about getting reports from border force and something about border force not being able to seize parcels (?) which confuses me but I'm in no state to argue having just woken up and feeling threatened by these two massive guys in my living room
- One of the officers leaves the room while I'm doing that. He goes to talk to someone. My partner? Another officer? I don't know and I'm paranoid other people are in the house
- The ambulance crew arrives, I ask who it is and the officer who is effectively guarding me/keeping me in the room tells me. I ask why they are there. I tell them I'm really upset by how it was handled because now my partner knows everything. They said they had no idea if I would be dead or alive so they rushed to the house and called ambulance but cancelled when they arrived to find me alive. He said 'they came anyway' for some reason. I don't know if I trust him but I feel threatened
- There is a long period where an officer leaves (they switch places) and one is talking to others in the other room. I cannot tell how many people are there, if the ambulance crew are still there, if he is on the phone, if he is speaking to my partner. It is clear they are not leaving despite MHAS saying I do not need to attend hospital
- I say I am anxious and I ask repeatedly what is going on. The officer blocks me from leaving. I go to check the window to see if my partner is outside as I was hoping he had not heard anything. The officer moves towards me in a way I found threatening, as if he expected me to jump from the window. He gives me some vague excuses about finding more details about the parcel. I suspect they are already searching my house but cannot tell
- The ambulance guy comes in and asks "do you want me to check you over?" I ask what on earth that means. He says stuff like blood pressure etc. I am baffled and already anxious and dissociated and say it won't be necessary. He says 'okay' then leaves the room but not the house. The police officer says "yeah, I don't know what that was about either". It felt farcical and confusing like they were playing mind games with me. I'm getting more and more anxious
- Eventually one of them comes back in with a photo and proof the parcel arrived. I continued to lie and denied a search but the fact the crew were still there and the fact I was worried they had already searched and were trying to 'trap' me in a lie again made me consent. I asked them to tell my partner they did not find anything. One of the officers has a loud phone call with the main office explaining the parcel has been found so they clearly did not give a fucking shit. I still have no idea how many people are in the house but I hear some people leaving (ambulance crew?). I am told my partner was in the kitchen the whole time.
- Officer comes back in and asks me about some other meds I ordered online. He takes the diazepam and tells me 'I could get in trouble for it' but that he won't do anything, he lets me keep the modafinil. He didn't touch any of the other illegal drugs I had, lmao.
- They both come back in and I get some schpeel about how 'I can always talk to someone, even the police' and some bullshit lecture about how I should talk to my partner more (great, thanks nanny state for telling me how to run my relationships). I would estimate they were there for 2-3 hours but I don't know for sure as I didn't even get to check the time when I woke up, I was marched straight from bed to see police.