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lizzywizzy09

Arcanist
May 11, 2024
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I hate that the only time I'm not having a trauma response from it all is when I'm just emotionally despondent and bored out of my skull. If I'm not in debilitating emotional pain, I'm just tired and apathetic. No point to life, really.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,200
I understand feeling so tired of it all, existing truly is just so pointless and undesirable to me, I only wish for nothingness. But anyway best wishes.
 
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AloeGarten

AloeGarten

magicka
May 14, 2021
142
same, its just pure emptiness. only thing that seems to help is drugs
 
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Superdeterminist

Superdeterminist

Enlightened
Apr 5, 2020
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This boredom is pure torture. The past 400 days or more have been approximately identical. It's not an experience fit even for a roach, never mind a human.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,345
I hate that the only time I'm not having a trauma response from it all is when I'm just emotionally despondent and bored out of my skull. If I'm not in debilitating emotional pain, I'm just tired and apathetic. No point to life, really.
This severe boredom is just one reason why I'm glad that after Death is non-existence forever. imagine being bored to that level for a trillion to the qudrillion years and beyond.

It boggles my mind that people believe and wish for afterlives , reincarnation. if that were true your consciousness could exist for trilions of years : so boredom or other kinds of suffering are possible and for even longer times than this horrible life of 90 years. 90 years is too long to exist / live / be consious..

I just have avoid extreme pain for the time that i will be alive till certain Death. but then after Death there can be no chance of pain suffering problems bad memories boredom nothing bad . But i want to kill myself as soon as i can so that I can get to non-existence and so be safe forever.+
 
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iloverachel

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Mar 7, 2024
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I hate that the only time I'm not having a trauma response from it all is when I'm just emotionally despondent and bored out of my skull. If I'm not in debilitating emotional pain, I'm just tired and apathetic. No point to life, really.
I can relate so much
I'm sorry you feel this way too
 
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