When I was 18, in 1974, I was kicked out by my "parents", and having grown up on a working dairy farm, I was never given an allowance, so I had zero money, and I was homeless and hungry, and by the grace of GOD and family took me in and fed and housed me while I got going. Went to college at the age of 24, after having saved money up, went to college and got a 4-year degree, I like so many others have had a bumpy start. But I pulled through and with every fiber in my being I feel that you can to.
You are an intelligent and kind soul; your thread speaks that in volumes, and I have worked with folks who got their GED online, for some it was easy and so had more of a go with it, but it happened and hope that you give something like that a try.
You are way too valuable NOT to be here, with no family nor friends, having folks like YOU, make this existence worthwhile to/for me.
Lots of love and the knowledge that you ARE a winner, it will just take some time.
Walter