Venting want to try tonight

[cath55555]

okay so this is just a huge ramble sorry in advance

weekend was okay but Saturday I was feeling really shit and hallucinating loads

I have lots of pills and I know it possibly won't kill me but that's all I have access to rn and the fact it *might* kill me is tempting me so much

I just don't see the point any more but I don't want to land myself in hospital only to live through this

I can't even cry the tears won't come

I feel so tired

I'm fucked

 

[FuneralCry]

Overdosing on pills really isn't a reliable method, lots of people have failed ctb in such a way but if you want to attempt that, then it's up to you but it does sound horrible ending up in the hospital. I hate how suicide is so difficult in this world.