LMLN
Paragon
- Aug 10, 2019
- 929
porfin1234
Arcanist
- Dec 26, 2019
- 476
Yes I am but scarier is my inability to function in society without screwing up relationships and constantly self sabotaging even when I don't mean to.
BPD Barbie
Visionary
- Dec 1, 2019
- 2,361
I used to be terrified of the pain of dying and the unknown, just having no idea what's after it. But in more recent years its become warm and comforting to think of.
gothfairy
sad girl
- Nov 12, 2019
- 64
I'm not afraid to die i'm afraid of fucking it up and being in a worse situation.
Do not believe in these nonsense friend, when you die you are only food for worms.
MsMaudlin
This is the fierce last stand of all I am
- Dec 8, 2019
- 875
I'm not afraid to die, I'm afraid of the CTB not working or them finding me and reviving me x
I think that applies to most of us on SS. Otherwise we wouldn't spend so much time on here. We would just do it.
TearyEyedQueen
In the wrong timeline
- Nov 14, 2019
- 366
As much as I'm scared of feeling pain while dying I'm more scared of another 50-60 years of this torturous, boring, meaningless existence which I've brought on my own. I'm scared of dying alone and forgotten as a 70 year old with dementia and inability to move.
My prime was spent living as if I were 70, what am I gonna do later when it only gets worse?
Pain seems small and insignificant compared to this.
My prime was spent living as if I were 70, what am I gonna do later when it only gets worse?
Pain seems small and insignificant compared to this.
I just don't think so living is scary to me
Me n u are so alike it's scary
If I knew my death was certain I wouldn't mind enduring 1-6 mins of really bad pain Now . Lot better then 60 years. Plus The way some people die horrible painful deaths after 60 years.
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terry_a_davis
Warlock
- Dec 28, 2019
- 707
If i can die by N it would help me be much less nervous having seen how it looked on the dignitas video. I'd be a bit afraid of the SN method which is the next option for me. I think taking benzo's before would help.
ARW3N
Melancholia
- Dec 25, 2019
- 402
The biggest obstacle to CTB for me is the survival instinct which is why I get the impression that thoughts of suicide are more common than the act itself. I've seen this suicide documentary of the Golden Gate Bridge where jumpers are doing backflips and looking like they're almost falling accidentally rather than jumping from the bridge. One bystander mistook a jumper for a bungee jumper. The jumpers are behaving that way, of course, in order to circumvent their survival instincts. One jumper repeatedly went to one part of the bridge where she was always saved by bystanders.
Thereisnothing
Enlightened
- Jan 4, 2020
- 1,604
I do fear dying yet at same time can it be any worse than all the suffering here. I am scared to go ahead and do it because I am unsure of what method would be best for me, have to be something that I could be confident enough in that wouldn't mean I could be saved and have to live with brain or organ damage or the like. Also what stops me is the fear of not crossing over into spirit world. I am not religious but do believe in the afterlife/spirit world and they keep telling me those who take their life wont go to peace, which to me seems very unfair. If someone is suffering for whatever reason surely they deserve peace. Such conflicting thoughts and ideas.
This is exactly what's stopping me from taking the next step. I know I can't go on with this pain any longer but at the same time I can't seem to get over the survival instinct. I'm so uncomfortable all I can do is sleep. Thankfully. I'm pretty much dead already I sleep so much.
k75
L'appel du Vide
- Jun 27, 2019
- 2,546
I'm not afraid to die, but I am afraid to kill myself. I don't deal well with change and the unknown. Obviously something I'll have to push through.
