FailerQt.
Crazy bish
- Mar 17, 2023
- 87
I really really wish I could go already. However, the coward I am doesn't allow me to. I chose to go by inert gas asphyxia eventually because it's painless and very successful method. I have done majority of the research for now. The only thing I am missing is the money. Didn't really want to go to manual work, but I don't have another choice. I am in debt already and can't even afford food at this point. Hopefully I'll earn just enough in April to ctb at my approximately scheduled time. I really wish I could do it now. Life has just been too unfair and difficult for the past year and can barely stand it now. Imagination of having to do some job I absolutely despise just to have money doesn't even bother me that much anymore. I just keep repeating to myself "I just need to last a few more weeks and I'm gone". But that waiting, I hate it..
I want to apologize if the post doesn't really make any sense or is pointless, but this is really the only place where I can share honest feelings without being sent the stupid number and being told to seek help. There is no help, not anymore. I already tried to get so called "professional" help, but it was only a waste of money and a big scam. There is just not a future I can look forward to or future worth living in for me.
Again, I am sorry for maybe pointless post
I want to apologize if the post doesn't really make any sense or is pointless, but this is really the only place where I can share honest feelings without being sent the stupid number and being told to seek help. There is no help, not anymore. I already tried to get so called "professional" help, but it was only a waste of money and a big scam. There is just not a future I can look forward to or future worth living in for me.
Again, I am sorry for maybe pointless post
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