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Eudaimonic

Eudaimonic

I want to fade away.
Aug 11, 2023
983
Every morning, I wake, I silently pray that this nightmare is finally over.

And of course, it never is, because it isn't a nightmare. It's reality, my reality.

I feel a creeping sense of dread as I realize that I'm still here, still trapped in this body and in this life I don't want.

The despair is overwhelming.
 
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wham311

Enlightened
Mar 1, 2025
1,201
Every morning, I wake, I silently pray that this nightmare is finally over.

And of course, it never is, because it isn't a nightmare. It's reality, my reality.

I feel a creeping sense of dread as I realize that I'm still here, still trapped in this body and in this life I don't want.

The despair is overwhelming.
Correct
 
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Csmith8827

Csmith8827

Strength.
Oct 26, 2019
986
If you have a roof over your head, and at least like a job and some money...like...try not to bitch. Like i get where you're coming from...on the streets i felt that exact same way years ago...but some stuff changed. It was totally dramatic and like epic even but it brought about change. Sometimes something major has to happen for us to break through whatever wall is there for some sort of change to happen. Long story short i'm in a different position now and everything is going to be better...a whole lot better soon...hopefully...just hang in there and try to change your situation..
 
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Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

Warlock
Jul 3, 2025
712
Every morning, I wake, I silently pray that this nightmare is finally over.

And of course, it never is, because it isn't a nightmare. It's reality, my reality.

I feel a creeping sense of dread as I realize that I'm still here, still trapped in this body and in this life I don't want.

The despair is overwhelming.
I feel exactly the same way. In my cases the nightmare will only end when I kill myself, there is no other option left. I can't fight my way out of this nightmare and live the "good " life I'm too much damaged.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,369
Every morning, I wake, I silently pray that this nightmare is finally over.

And of course, it never is, because it isn't a nightmare. It's reality, my reality.

I feel a creeping sense of dread as I realize that I'm still here, still trapped in this body and in this life I don't want.

The despair is overwhelming.
Me too .

But even if I could magically transform into one of the "good lives" or an above average life ,I would never want it. I would still choose Non-existence forever as soon as possible.

Why do I have to live another minute? I don't have to. Nobody can command me to keep living in this hell

But there is no magic, no afterlife, no reincarnation.
I feel exactly the same way. In my cases the nightmare will only end when I kill myself, there is no other option left. I can't fight my way out of this nightmare and live the "good " life I'm too much damaged.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,500
I really understand, I also find it so dreadful and torturous to suffer in this existence, all I want is to never exist again, I hope you find the relief you search for.
 
Eudaimonic

Eudaimonic

I want to fade away.
Aug 11, 2023
983
If you have a roof over your head, and at least like a job and some money...like...try not to bitch. Like i get where you're coming from...on the streets i felt that exact same way years ago...but some stuff changed. It was totally dramatic and like epic even but it brought about change. Sometimes something major has to happen for us to break through whatever wall is there for some sort of change to happen. Long story short i'm in a different position now and everything is going to be better...a whole lot better soon...hopefully...just hang in there and try to change your situation..
How do you know my situation is even changeable? You know nothing about me. I didn't make any of it explicit in this post, so why are you acting as though I did?
 
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Csmith8827

Csmith8827

Strength.
Oct 26, 2019
986
How do you know my situation is even changeable? You know nothing about me. I didn't make any of it explicit in this post, so why are you acting as though I did?
I was just providing advice.
 

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