waiting for someone to help me back is probably a dumb move

[404]

i've decided that maybe i should wait a bit longer before i commit suicide just to see if some people change and help me

i tried to be on good terms with some people that i know and trust (like saying gm/gn to them, giving gifts, help them a bit with their work, and just hanging out with them i guess) but that's probably not enough for them to help me in my lowest points

maybe i should give up already or do something else worthwhile but i can't really think of anything other than waiting for something good to happen

everything i do is worthless or dumb anyway

 

[SexyIncél]

Do you have any particular, actionable problems to solve? Or more general support while talking with you?

 

[inviável]

i've decided that maybe i should wait a bit longer before i commit suicide just to see if some people change and help me

i tried to be on good terms with some people that i know and trust (like saying gm/gn to them, giving gifts, help them a bit with their work, and just hanging out with them i guess) but that's probably not enough for them to help me in my lowest points

maybe i should give up already or do something else worthwhile but i can't really think of anything other than waiting for something good to happen

everything i do is worthless or dumb anyway

Honestly I've tried to do the same thing multiple times, and I always ended up frustrated because literally no one seems to care about me the same way I care about them.

It's really necessary to acknowledge that some people would not take a hint or they will be discomfort and maybe not know how to reach out to you. And I know that is easier said than done but really try to communicate your feelings, because although it's expected to your friends or trusted ones reach out to you they can't read your mind yk?

 

[アホペンギン]

If the people in your life were horrible to you and you're still staying alive to see if they have any potential to change probably isn't a good idea, it would just end up in you wasting time. But, i don't know your situation so i'm not the right person to say anything. If they were nice to you all these years and weren't the main cause as to why you want to ctb then maybe theres still hope for them… But if nothing changes in a few weeks then know that nothing ever will do so.

And no, everything you do isn't worthless or dumb. I don't know you personally but i can guarantee you that you've done at least a few things that people have appreciated so far in your life. If you don't think that waiting for help is worthwhile then of course you're free to ctb, no one but them will stop you. To avoid that just ctb in an area where you're sure that they wouldn't look for you.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

What kind of help would you expect? Who should help you with what? Friends? Family? Doctor?

 

[404]

What kind of help would you expect? Who should help you with what? Friends? Family? Doctor?

i wish my current friends would support and help me live my life normally since my parents were abusive and my old friends didn't care at all about my wellbeing even though i told them many times what was happening to me in my home

i think im expecting too much of my current friends but i really want to feel like im important to some people

And I know that is easier said than done but really try to communicate your feelings, because although it's expected to your friends or trusted ones reach out to you they can't read your mind yk?

i guess i'll try to tell them what i feel properly next time i see them but im very afraid that they won't care about me

 

[Praestat_Mori]

i think im expecting too much of my current friends but i really want to feel like im important to some people

You are important to us here! Unfortunately it's anonymous here and I fully understand that you also need that in real life, which would be even more important.

 

[inviável]

i guess i'll try to tell them what i feel properly next time i see them but im very afraid that they won't care about me

I totally understand you, if they don't care about probably they're not persons that are good to keep around, if you ever feel like you need to talk with someone you can PM me