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Would you rather die tonight in your sleep or win 100 million in the lottery?

  • Die tonight in your sleep

  • Win 100 millions in the lottery


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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,157
Préféreriez-vous mourir ce soir dans votre sommeil ou gagner 100 millions à la loterie ?

Votez s'il vous plaît🙏
J'essaie d'obtenir autant de votes que possible🙏

GRAND MERCI
🙏🙏
 
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indefinitesleep

indefinitesleep

It is what it is
Jun 29, 2024
133
I have such bad anhedonia to where even with all the money, flash cars, a mansion I wouldnt be able to enjoy any of it
 
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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

:( precisely as ugly as Sidney Sweeney :(
Sep 19, 2023
2,228
Lottery, not close. Too interesting and ctb would be easy. Could do all sorts of weird ctb stuff like guillotine if the money ends up not helping for some reason.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,157
J'ai une telle anhédonie que même avec tout l'argent, les voitures de luxe, un manoir, je ne pourrais pas en profiter. merci au vote...
Ok thanks to be voted
 
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dolemitedrums

Arcanist
Jun 12, 2024
447
Win the 100 million, leave 99.99 million to friends and family. Use the other 0.01 million to get some Nembutal.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,157
Remportez 100 millions et laissez 99,99 millions à vos amis et à votre famille. Utilisez les 0,01 million restants pour vous procurer du Nembutal.
You are generous.
But die in sleep is better without suffer IS better than N...true N difficult to have...
and you have to wait a long Time to get it
 
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sickofthisht

Member
Jul 2, 2024
39
The 100 million would fix my problems, I'd be happy if I could just do whatever the fuck I wanted and was able to give aload of cash to people
 
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Oneness

Oneness

The eternal awaits
Oct 23, 2023
118
Win the 100 million, leave 99.99 million to friends and family. Use the other 0.01 million to get some Nembutal.
Now this is some next level thinking.

Benefits:
  1. Your family would be set for life, which is kinda like you're still looking out for them.
  2. They could do some cool stuff in your name, like start a charity.
  3. You're not only ensuring their financial security but also potentially easing the emotional burden of losing you.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,157
Les 100 millions régleraient mes problèmes, je serais heureux si je pouvais faire tout ce que je veux et donner beaucoup d'argent aux gens.
Heureux pour toi...💪
THère IS again Hope for you
Now this is some next level thinking.

Benefits:
  1. Your family would be set for life, which is kinda like you're still looking out for them.
  2. They could do some cool stuff in your name, like start a charity.
  3. You're not only ensuring their financial security but also potentially easing the emotional burden of losing you.
Very honorable 🙏
me and my family never lacked of money and me and my family are not spender.
Money can't cure illness but i understand you
 
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Coconut blue

Coconut blue

Student
May 13, 2024
161
lottery, spend it all, then ctb:)
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,157
lottery, spend it all, then ctb:)
Ok i understand...but for me not to have the patience of wait death...
and die in sleep is the best death without dolor
 
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Coconut blue

Coconut blue

Student
May 13, 2024
161
and die in sleep is the best death without dolor
this is very true....i've always envied ppl who get heart failure in their sleep and die from it
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,157
To people who speak here...dont forget to vote please😉.
this is very true....i've always envied ppl who get heart failure in their sleep and die from it
Me too
 
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ImsooDone1N

Arcanist
Nov 22, 2018
857
Based on how I feel now, and have been feeling for a long time… I was thinking. I would not even enjoy being able to spend it. I'm not who I once was. I look in the mirror & I don't see me anymore. Idek who I am anyway. So I would be so grateful to die in my sleep. I've had a good method for a while now (N) & I've not been able to bring myself to use it. I've tried. Things are not going to get better for me. I've hoped & tried many things but nothing works. I have so little support. I'm in such a horribly deep hole I don't think there is any way out.

With that in mind, I would give anything to die in my sleep. I don't want the money. I'd give every last penny I have now to just go to sleep n never wake up. That would be my dream. No one will really miss me.
 
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sukiduki

Student
Mar 24, 2024
155
a guaranteed peaceful death in sleep to me is worth way more than money and you can't guarantee a peaceful death. even with 100 million dollars and you get all the things you want for ctb easily you still might not get a peaceful passing.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,157
a guaranteed peaceful death in sleep to me is worth way more than money and you can't guarantee a peaceful death. even with 100 million dollars and you get all the things you want for ctb easily you still might not get a peaceful passing.
Total agree
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
Win 100 million. I can use some of that money to get N, use some more of that money to provide for my family and myself and, lastly, I think I'd donate some money to members here. Once all my money runs out, I'd just take the N and be at peace
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,157
Je gagne 100 millions. Je peux utiliser une partie de cet argent pour obtenir N, utiliser une autre partie de cet argent pour subvenir aux besoins de ma famille et de moi-même et, enfin, je pense que je ferais un don aux membres ici. Une fois tout mon argent épuisé, je prendrais simplement le N et serais en paix
But its very difficult to have true N now😰
 
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Hystearical

Hystearical

In tears
Jul 23, 2022
4,936
Give me the money honey
 
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Rocinante

Rocinante

My name is Lucifer, please take my hand
Aug 26, 2022
1,469
Give me the money, I'll die later
 
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lostintheloop

Enlightened
Apr 14, 2023
1,319
Die 100% , although in my sleep is too kind, I want to be aware and suffer.
There's nothing I get or want out of life so nothing to spend the money on. It'd make no difference to my desire to ctb or the fact that I have to die.
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,157
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kyhoti

kyhoti

Looking for fair winds and following seas
May 27, 2024
294
That kind of money would kill me anyway, probably blown out on dope, at 155 miles per hour in my Ferrari. Just saying.
 
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m1ll1pede

m1ll1pede

still here sadly
Jun 2, 2024
60
If I had that money I'm giving it to my family
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,157
If I had that money I'm giving it to my family
Very generous🙏but for me m'y family dont need
Am i alone to want to die in my sleep?
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,157
Tonight i want to die in my sleep 🙏🙏🙏
 
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BackToLobby

BackToLobby

My bad, first time living.
Apr 9, 2024
80
I can't believe that my life has become so boring and misserable that I prefer to die
 
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dragonofenvy

dragonofenvy

Warlock
Oct 8, 2023
722
I don't even know what I'd do with the money. I don't enjoy anything, and money isn't going to buy my way out of the crushing loneliness I feel all the time. At least dying in my sleep is the most peaceful way to go ever, I'd hate to be rich and still miserable because then I'd feel worse off with the thought that I shouldn't feel miserable due to having all of this money.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,157
Je n'arrive pas à croire que ma vie soit devenue si ennuyeuse et misérable que je préfère mourir.
Same boring AND ILLNESS CANT CURE
 
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Ironborn

Specialist
Jan 29, 2024
393
With that much money I'd just self-destruct faster than I already have through my life.
I just want to rest now.
 
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