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Im ngl everyone saying its super brutal and stuff like that but looking at the video im really not seeing the brutality that people described. Sure it looks uncomfortable and there's a lot of vomit but im really not seeing the brutality in this.
I don't think it was brutal, but certainly uncomfortable for sure.

That being said I've done extensive amounts of dxm which would cause me to vomit for 20 sometimes 30 minutes straight. I'm well acquainted with nausea, vomiting (which i sorta enjoy), and panic. I remember once taking a ginormous dose of dxm and just puking my soul out over the toilet and feeling like I was literally dying. I was in shock and later on couldnt believe the body could go through so much psychological distress. Hopefully SN with benzos timed correctly shouldn't be too bad in comparison.

I have GERD/LPR and oftentimes I have indigestion, fermentation, stasis of stomach contents and end up having to vomit everything out. I often have to induce it myself and get it out in multiple goes - 3 to 4 times in one attempt with maybe 5 or 6 attempts in total until the stomach is completely empty and all one gets out is bile. I get terribly weak and shaky and can't even stand on my legs after I am done.

There's a difference between that and what we see on the video in the sense that what I have to do often is voluntary and what we see in the video is quite the opposite where the guy is trying his best to keep the contents in but they get out anyway despite his best efforts and him having to re-swallow it back with his saliva and everything..There is definitely a higher distress component attached to vomiting when it's involuntary like that IMO.

But despite all of that, I think I'll still take it. I suppose there are other forms of CTB like drowning or jumping which seems to be much more painful that I can't even contemplate of. I can barely come to terms with FSH or partial hanging as a back up method. Comparatively, I'll take SN over those methods anyday for sure.
 
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what should someone say in a pharmacy to get anti vomit tablets?
 
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JeyJeyOfJeypore

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Jun 4, 2026
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This guy puked soon after taking the SN, and he kept puking... How are we supposed to drink a second dose in such circumstances? And he didn't take a second one. And in the case you can take a second one what's the point? You will puke right after taking it...
That sucks...
And he looks so cute too
Couldnt make it past 4:44

And even up to there... just seeing his grimacing face made me hold my mouth and bite my hand
 
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Jan 11, 2026
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Hmm... this isn't food poisoning, right? Unless you are saying SN poisoning resembles food poisoning. Sorry I think I misunderstood. But yes if there are easier and available methods this is probably not everyone's first pick. I think it's more of an availability thing for me.
I mean food poisoning caused by vegetables and fruit that are not washed properly can be worse than SN. Food that can easily go bad.
 
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I mean food poisoning caused by vegetables and fruit that are not washed properly can be worse than SN. Food that can easily go bad.
I see what you mean. I guess what ur trying to say is we go through things which are more painful in day to day life so this shouldn't be too bad in comparison. There are much worse experiences you can go through than SN poisoning.
I don't think it was brutal, but certainly uncomfortable for sure.



I have GERD/LPR and oftentimes I have indigestion, fermentation, stasis of stomach contents and end up having to vomit everything out. I often have to induce it myself and get it out in multiple goes - 3 to 4 times in one attempt with maybe 5 or 6 attempts in total until the stomach is completely empty and all one gets out is bile. I get terribly weak and shaky and can't even stand on my legs after I am done.

There's a difference between that and what we see on the video in the sense that what I have to do often is voluntary and what we see in the video is quite the opposite where the guy is trying his best to keep the contents in but they get out anyway despite his best efforts and him having to re-swallow it back with his saliva and everything..There is definitely a higher distress component attached to vomiting when it's involuntary like that IMO.

But despite all of that, I think I'll still take it. I suppose there are other forms of CTB like drowning or jumping which seems to be much more painful that I can't even contemplate of. I can barely come to terms with FSH or partial hanging as a back up method. Comparatively, I'll take SN over those methods anyday for sure.
Yeah when people were talking about brutal agony is was expecting to see something much worse. At least when I think of agony I picture people trashing and writhing and screaming and crying, that kind of stuff. I mean I've had worse vomiting spells after taking dxm which would have me puking foam. This honestly looks like a fairly peaceful way to go out even compared to a lot of natural causes of death.
IDK man I'm telling you that you can get access to Fentanyl. If you got SN I'm willing to bet you obtained it through the dark web AKA the TOR browser. Assuming that's the case, on those same marketplaces you can find any drug including SN you can find fentanyl and nitazenes. Nitazenes in particular have been getting more popular as the major marketplaces have since banned Fentanyl (as of the early 2020's these marketplaces made these shifts particularly because of the big emphasis/crackdown on fentanyl and the website owners not wanting that much head/attention from the feds) and what came about after was just all the fentanyl pill pressers turning to nitazenes instead. Literally purchase ANY oxycodone pill listing on any DW marketplace that isn't listed as a script and there's a good 99% chance it was made with Fentanyl or nitazenes (which are stronger than fentanyl). Or even better just DM the vendor and ask for their ingredients. 99% of the oxycodone pill pressers right now use isotonitazene and will straight up tell you so in their products listing description.

Sorry. I should clarify that I DON'T despise the people of China, Bangladesh, and Korea but rather was just using their government as an example of countries who's academic systems have driven their students to commit suicide. When I say I despise the country I really meant its government body and not anything more. I didn't mean to come off as disrespectful if you were referring to my comments. Feel free to delete any of them you find not complacent with the rules.

I don't blame you at all. Out of curiosity how are you doing now? Are you in China currently or not? How has that all been for you? (assuming you're comfortable elaborating). I ask because it's not often I see someone directly post on here saying they've had direct experence with China's very intensive educational enviornments.

It's apparently 9 seconds short of being a 12 minute video. Granted it seems he spent the first minute making the solution before finally drinking it. Although I'm not sure as its quite hard to tell and I only briefly jumped through the video. Even in the event with AEs and benzos that shit just looks so brutal. I don't know man. I just wish there was a more secure method this site could use to ensure there were no minors outside of a checkbox that says "Yeah, I'm 18" because if there was then I'd literally just be posting the listing links to nitazenes and fentanyl (also assuming they changed the rules to allow because as of now they don't). Not because I want any of you reading this to CTB (I hope all of you can find solace WITHOUT ending your own life), but just because in the event you DO decide to do it, you don't have to do it in such a brutal manner like this. That's why I referred to SN as a "dumb" method. Not only do you need other drugs typically on top of the SN for it to work but a lot of people have to involve heavy equipment and at that point it just becomes ridiculous and risky. At best, you pass peacefully but at worst (and unfortunately seemingly more realistically) you get real close to death and have permanent damage done to your body or you DO die but you go out in a real brutal way like that kid. That's why I really don't understand why everyone here glorifies that method over the rest (particularly as it relates to drug-induced methods when we live in a fentanyl and nitazene ridden world). It seems the most costly/expensive and it seems to have a pretty low success rate in terms of delivering a peaceful death unless you absolutely 1000% know what your doing and have the right equipment. Nobody who is depressed deserves to go out the way he did. He likely just wanted a safe and peaceful exit. Poor kid man :/
Could i ask what about the video seemed so brutal to you. All im seeing is vomiting and anxiety. What I'm not seeing is any thrashing in pain, screaming, etc. I hope we are watching the same video.
 
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IDK man I'm telling you that you can get access to Fentanyl. If you got SN I'm willing to bet you obtained it through the dark web AKA the TOR browser. Assuming that's the case, on those same marketplaces you can find any drug including SN you can find fentanyl and nitazenes.
But there can legal issues if someone gets caught for getting opioids etc. No one will be put in jail for ordering SN. They will just confiscate it at best. How do they even get it via the dark web internationally.
 
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May 21, 2026
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Ohhhh okay. See, this makes a TON more sense. I've always thought you guys sourced it via TOR. Not I understand why SN is much easier to get for you guys than nitazenes and fentanyl. I guess my suggestion would be to learn how to use TOR. I posted a basic tutorial on setting it up a bit ago I'll repost it here:

1. Download TOR. This part is the simple part. If you can't get past this step then you might as well give up here lol. You literally just download the program like any other.

2. Run it

3. Turn your security level to the highest. I believe by default when you install TOR it's on standard (or "Safer"... but either way both are bad and you wanna change it to the "safest" option) and you want to change that. To do this, when TOR is open on the top right you should see a shield icon. Click that, and then click the blue settings button. You'll be then taken to your settings where you'll see "security level". Click the "change" button and make sure the option that is selected is the "safest" mode. Then, click "save and restart". Now when it restarts and you go to click the shield icon it should tell you that you're on the "safest" security level. If it shows that then you did it right.

4. You want to do bridging via TOR. This helps hide your internet traffic. To do this open TOR and to the right of your search/URL box and next to the sheild icon should be a button with three horizontal lines. Click it, then go down and click settings. In the settings search bar just type "bridges" and you'll see a result. Then, click "Select a built-in bridge" and choose snowflake and click ok. Boom, your done. If you're in a strict country and for example under the firewall of China then perhaps obfs4 or WebTunnel are a better option for bridging so if that's the case for you click one of those instead of snowflake. Do research on the options as ultimately each option hides your traffic in unique ways.

4. Now you need to disable your TOR's javascript. To do this go into your search bar where you'd type any normal search or URL and type "about:config" and click enter. You'll be given a warning to "proceed with caution" and that's fine. It's just a warning essentially saying that if you don't know what you're doing the settings you change could ruin the performance or security of TOR. Click "Accept the Risk and Continue". Then, at the top in your config it should have a search bar that says "search preference name". Click that search bar, and then type "javascript.enabled". You'll then see an option called "javascript.enabled" with it turned to True. To the right of that it should have an icon you can click (I can't really describe the icon its like two horizontal half arrows pointing in opposite directions). Click it and then it should turn the true to false. If it did then congrats you did it right and you turned it off.

If you wanna go the extra step you can even add an extra layer of security via a VPN but you shouldn't need to if you enabled bridging. But a tutorial for that is two google searches away. And if you had trouble following any of these steps then YouTube is your best-friend for more visual aid to follow along.

Now that you have the proper setup to browse these .onion links safely, If you wanted to hypothetically buy drugs from one of the marketplaces and wanted to access them but don't know where to go then tor.taxi will be your best friend. It gives access to the most user friendly markets to start out with alongside other good resources. From tor.taxi you could hypothetically go on DH and as I said previously buy whatever I've previously mentioned there.

I hope that helps. That's as much as I'm willing to say as I think with anything more it'll be considered sourcing and I'll be banned.

They said you can't overdose on nitazenes or fentanyl? If that's what you meant then well I'm not sure who told you that but they absolutely couldn't be further from the truth. Fentanyl and Nitazenes are amongst the most potent opioids in the world. Visually, the tiniest little spec of fentanyl can kill you (2-3 MG's) and microscopic pieces of nitazenes can can kill you (doses as low as 500 ug/micrograms). If you're saying the overdoses can be reversed then yes that's true: with a drug called naloxone (commonly referred to as narcan) medics can reverse it, but with nitazenes and fentanyl now being readily available (some hundreds of times more potent than fentanyl) it takes a ridiculous amount of Narcan to reverse it. Especially if you're intentionally committing suicide and just ingesting an entire gram or more of nitazenes. Something to note also is that since they're so potent the chance of success is nearly 1000%. Unless you have a medic who is right next to you on standby the moment you ingest it there's little to no chance they're bringing you back from a nitazene OD. With SN you need to worry about "what if this goes wrong and I end up waking up a vegetable?". With SN you have all these worries. However, with fentanyl or nitazenes, the success rate is an absolute guarantee compared to SN where it depends on seemingly 10+ factors which is a risk I wouldn't take.

Don't thank me. Thank you! Thank you for taking the time to answer my questions. It was really neat learning your perspective. It's so sad they force you guys to be so in line if there's only one way you can approach life. Truly believe in yourself. I promise you'll go on to do great things with your life regardless if you go to college or not. Best of luck to you friend.
Ok, but the courier is still a risk who will come to bring this drugs to you? As it is a Tor seller btw i am sure they have personal couriers isn't like that?
 
SadCryingBunny

SadCryingBunny

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I watched the video. What an awful way to go. I'm sticking to Nitrogen & Exit Bag, I hope I don't convulse like this guy did.
 
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SN was never N. And even for N, there is a dignitas video of a man coughing, showing mild discomfort, and asking for water. No method is 100% peaceful it seems.
 
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ivathantri

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That looks painful, I'm not sure anymore :(
 
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Bitter Almonds

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Jan 16, 2026
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What I don't understand though is how you guys find it so hard to find/source. Like, I don't know where you guys are sourcing all the SN from (because I've never looked for it before), but I'm assuming you're doing it on one of the mainstream TOR drug marketplaces. And assuming you're doing that and that I'm right, on those SAME marketplaces you can find direct nitazene powder from chinese vendors but then if you want something domestic you can just look at your oxyocodone listings (or really any opioid pill category but mainly they lace the oxy supply) and buy any pressed pill. Just DM the vendor and ask which chemical is pressed within the pill. 99% of the time it's nitazenes (isotonitazene seems to be the big one rn). And half of the time you don't even gotta ask what the ingredient is because as I said above they'll sometimes just straight up tell you in the listing descriptions. I wish I could get more specific to help you guys out but I just can't. I hope what I've said here at least sorta helps you get pointed in the right direction. Best of luck to you friend!
In the US, I was able to source SN on Amazon. it just isn't listed as SN. Just for clarity.

If I could get fent, I would.
 
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LongJacks

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Feb 17, 2026
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This guy puked soon after taking the SN, and he kept puking... How are we supposed to drink a second dose in such circumstances? And he didn't take a second one. And in the case you can take a second one what's the point? You will puke right after taking it...
And they say SN is a peaceful method. What a load of horseshit.
 
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death_bed221

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And they say SN is a peaceful method. What a load of horseshit.
There is no peaceful method. When people say sn is peaceful they just compare it to stuff like hanging.
For some people nausea and vomiting for 10 mins is worth it instead of a whole life of intense pain and for some its not. This video to me doesn't seem even that bad.
Some people here have a very childish expectation of what it feels like to die.
 
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LongJacks

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Feb 17, 2026
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There is no peaceful method. When people say sn is peaceful they just compare it to stuff like hanging.
For some people nausea and vomiting for 10 mins is worth it instead of a whole life of intense pain and for some its not. This video to me doesn't seem even that bad.
Some people here have a very childish expectation of what it feels like to die.
There are certain peaceful methods but are hard to obtain, also hanging IF done right and you're lucky you'll just pass out whilst SN you're aware and struggling to fucking breath while vomit is spewing out of your fucking mouth so if you think that's peaceful you might be delusional buddy.
 
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Ultimatefighter

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So it is very painfull and your gasping for air for 20-40 minuts..
 
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death_bed221

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There are certain peaceful methods but are hard to obtain, also hanging IF done right and you're lucky you'll just pass out whilst SN you're aware and struggling to fucking breath while vomit is spewing out of your fucking mouth so if you think that's peaceful you might be delusional buddy.
Sorry to say but this just isn't true.
What method is peaceful and "hard to obtain" ?
You mean drugs like heroin or fentanyl? Talk to people that OD and survived on that stuff.
They will tell you its not peaceful at all. I know actual drug addicts.
Yes in theory if you do it right, hanging will make u pass out instant but in actual real life 99.9% of people do it wrong and thrash for 2 mins in extreme pain before passing out.
I am not sayin Sn is a good way to die at all and I never said it peaceful so please stop putting words in my mouth, I am saying that compared to other methods its probably easier to do and with less pain.
Sn also causes shortness of breath which is different to struggling to breathe.
Vomiting also is not painful. With sn I would worry more about stomach pain than anything else. Some reports say its pretty bad stomach pain before you pass out and its even worse if you survive it.
 
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LongJacks

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Sorry to say but this just isn't true.
What method is peaceful and "hard to obtain" ?
You mean drugs like heroin or fentanyl? Talk to people that OD and survived on that stuff.
They will tell you its not peaceful at all. I know actual drug addicts.
Yes in theory if you do it right, hanging will make u pass out instant but in actual real life 99.9% of people do it wrong and thrash for 2 mins in extreme pain before passing out.
I am not sayin Sn is a good way to die at all and I never said it peaceful so please stop putting words in my mouth, I am saying that compared to other methods its probably easier to do and with less pain.
Sn also causes shortness of breath which is different to struggling to breathe.
Vomiting also is not painful. With sn I would worry more about stomach pain than anything else. Some reports say its pretty bad stomach pain before you pass out and its even worse if you survive it.
Nembutal. I never mentioned heroin and fentanyl ik they aren't peaceful overdosing in general isn't peaceful, I also know drug addicts and ik what it does to them

When they trash it's because they're receiving brain damage NOT because they're aware! Educate yourself

I just said SN isn't peaceful and you an SN larper came to give me a reply

It's not solely on pain yes vomiting isn't painful but imagine dying on shortness of breathe while vomiting what a nice way to go -_- peaceful doesn't mean painless it means dying PEACEFULLY not in discomfort

You think DYING in your last moments with shortness of breathe, vomiting, nausea, no strength to do anything is peaceful?
 
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Ultimatefighter

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Nembutal. I never mentioned heroin and fentanyl ik they aren't peaceful overdosing in general isn't peaceful, I also know drug addicts and ik what it does to them

When they trash it's because they're receiving brain damage NOT because they're aware! Educate yourself

I just said SN isn't peaceful and you an SN larper came to give me a reply

It's not solely on pain yes vomiting isn't painful but imagine dying on shortness of breathe while vomiting what a nice way to go -_- peaceful doesn't mean painless it means dying PEACEFULLY not in discomfort

You think DYING in your last moments with shortness of breathe, vomiting, nausea, no strength to do anything is peaceful?
Then why in attempt section nobody talk about it. They say its relatively painless
 
Surek

Surek

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It looks like this whole topic of SN's "peacefulness" is going to keep coming up for a long time :P. Keep in mind that SN ≠ N, and all these additional drugs in the form of antiemetics, benzos, and beta-blockers are used precisely to alleviate symptoms and speed up the loss of consciousness. If this isn't a "peaceful" method for you (and everyone has their own definition of peacefulness), then just choose other methods - it's that "simple"

I survived two failed attempts in the form of ODs, and what is attributed to SN sounds "acceptable" to me, which is why it became my choice (although after some time I switched to Azide, but that's purely due to the lack of an antidote)

Separately, I want to note that judging by what survivors wrote here (as well as those who described their process during CTB), people usually pass out after 15–20 minutes, gradually entering a "drunk" state beforehand, because of which they are no longer fully aware of the unpleasant sensations, and after that, it's just the physical agony of the body, which they don't feel (due to the loss of consciousness)
 
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Ultimatefighter

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It looks like this whole topic of SN's "peacefulness" is going to keep coming up for a long time :P. Keep in mind that SN ≠ N, and all these additional drugs in the form of antiemetics, benzos, and beta-blockers are used precisely to alleviate symptoms and speed up the loss of consciousness. If this isn't a "peaceful" method for you (and everyone has their own definition of peacefulness), then just choose other methods - it's that simple

I survived two failed attempts in the form of ODs, and what is attributed to SN sounds "acceptable" to me, which is why it became my choice (although after some time I switched to Azide, but that's purely due to the lack of an antidote)

Separately, I want to note that judging by what survivors wrote here (as well as those who described their process during CTB), people usually pass out after 15–20 minutes, gradually entering a "drunk" state beforehand, because of which they are no longer fully aware of the unpleasant sensations, and after that, it's just the physical agony of the body, which they don't feel (due to the loss of consciousness)
I understand your perspective, but there not such thing as just choose another method😂 the whole point is to find a relatively peacefull one and there is not much options left because they restrict every drug/method that for me only option left would be hanging or jumping which scares the hell out of me
 
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I understand your perspective, but there not such thing as just choose another method😂 the whole point is to find a relatively peacefull one and there is not much options left because they restrict every drug/method that for me only option left would be hanging or jumping which scares the hell out of me
Yeah, I didn't mean you could simply choose a another method. It just feels like some users vent their frustration about the lack of truly peaceful methods on others, as if we deliberately set things up so that our only options left are SN/Azide
 
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I understand your perspective, but there not such thing as just choose another method😂 the whole point is to find a relatively peacefull one and there is not much options left because they restrict every drug/method that for me only option left would be hanging or jumping which scares the hell out of me
There still is CO, and there's drowning. Yes I know, a lot of people are scared of drowning too, but I think it basically does the same thing that SN does, only a lot quicker, usually 3 minutes max and you pass out, 20 minutes you're dead. Jumping wouldn't be for me either - way too unpredictable how your body gets smashed up, your bones get broken, and how much of that you may still feel.
 
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LongJacks

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Feb 17, 2026
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Then why in attempt section nobody talk about it. They say its relatively painless
It's almost impossible to obtain it, it was easier to obtain a decade ago but the news media discovered it and made a documentary or video on it like how they did SN, now SN is also getting harder to obtain than it was before

You have to go to 3rd world countries, find a veterinarian and bribe them... do you know how hard that is? They could also turn you in and if you manage to bribe them they'll ask to pay a thousand or more
It's almost impossible to obtain it, it was easier to obtain a decade ago but the news media discovered it and made a documentary or video on it like how they did SN, now SN is also getting harder to obtain than it was before

You have to go to 3rd world countries, find a veterinarian and bribe them... do you know how hard that is? They could also turn you in and if you manage to bribe them they'll ask to pay a thousand or more
Also I have no god damn clue as to why Nembutal isn't listed on the Suicide Compilation thread, maybe again because it's almost impossible to get
 
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wayn

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Oct 3, 2024
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I understand this paranoia. I don't wanna self-snitch but I have quite a bit of experience to say the least with it. I can confidently say after dealing with many markets that have since been raided and direct vendors who have been raided I've been fine. You need to learn how to encrypt your address via PGP. Kleopatra is a good intro application to learn. Make a coffee and watch a 5 minute YouTube tutorial on it. If you PGP encrypt your delivery address and the feds kick doors down unless they get access to that private key AND they get the password out of the vendor there's no way they'll be able to decrypt and read any of the messages you've sent back and forth including your delivery address. If the vendor is professional and has a brain larger than the size of a pebble they wouldn't ever keep tabs on physical notes or paper. It's all done online via encrypted programs. More importantly, if you ever find out the market or vendor you used to shop with gets raided you simply just need to clean your house out. In the case the worse case scenario somehow happened (which it won't ever happen to a random guy like yourself buying just one single time or so... I promise. I'd bet money on it if I could lol) if you cleaned your house out it won't matter. ANYONE could hypothetically order anything under your name at any time and get it shipped to you. That isn't enough probable cause to legally charge you with anything. They'd need to see the drugs as well in your personal possession. My point here is to just use your brain. Trust me, from personal experience, particularly when I was a noobie, I really get where you're coming from. However, you can sit here and be paranoia ridden forever asking all these "what-ifs" but at that point why are you even on this website? You might as well just deactivate your account and stop using a phone. What if the vendor your buying SN from is doing the same? What if its a honeypot and just feds getting your details and now you have to deal with a wellness check? What if they don't even send you real SN? Do you see where I'm going with that? You have a good point obviously but IMO I'd argue you're actually taking MORE risk buying SN on the clear-net then buying something like fentanyl or nitazenes from the dark net for a few reasons.

That's certainly true. I don't know I was just hoping to shine some light on different ideas for people willing to take the risk because it breaks my heart to think a ton of people have likely ended up like that kid using SN to go out. Literally ANY other drug is better than what I sat there and briefly watched for like 30 seconds (SN OD). Think about it... if they used SN in to kill a prisoner of war they would probably consider it human torture because of how brutal that is. With an opioid OD you literally just fall into a forever sleep. It just breaks my heart is all. I hope you all can find peace without needing to CTB, but if you decide to anyway..... I hope it's far more peaceful then that.
Ohhhh okay. See, this makes a TON more sense. I've always thought you guys sourced it via TOR. Not I understand why SN is much easier to get for you guys than nitazenes and fentanyl. I guess my suggestion would be to learn how to use TOR. I posted a basic tutorial on setting it up a bit ago I'll repost it here:

1. Download TOR. This part is the simple part. If you can't get past this step then you might as well give up here lol. You literally just download the program like any other.

2. Run it

3. Turn your security level to the highest. I believe by default when you install TOR it's on standard (or "Safer"... but either way both are bad and you wanna change it to the "safest" option) and you want to change that. To do this, when TOR is open on the top right you should see a shield icon. Click that, and then click the blue settings button. You'll be then taken to your settings where you'll see "security level". Click the "change" button and make sure the option that is selected is the "safest" mode. Then, click "save and restart". Now when it restarts and you go to click the shield icon it should tell you that you're on the "safest" security level. If it shows that then you did it right.

4. You want to do bridging via TOR. This helps hide your internet traffic. To do this open TOR and to the right of your search/URL box and next to the sheild icon should be a button with three horizontal lines. Click it, then go down and click settings. In the settings search bar just type "bridges" and you'll see a result. Then, click "Select a built-in bridge" and choose snowflake and click ok. Boom, your done. If you're in a strict country and for example under the firewall of China then perhaps obfs4 or WebTunnel are a better option for bridging so if that's the case for you click one of those instead of snowflake. Do research on the options as ultimately each option hides your traffic in unique ways.

4. Now you need to disable your TOR's javascript. To do this go into your search bar where you'd type any normal search or URL and type "about:config" and click enter. You'll be given a warning to "proceed with caution" and that's fine. It's just a warning essentially saying that if you don't know what you're doing the settings you change could ruin the performance or security of TOR. Click "Accept the Risk and Continue". Then, at the top in your config it should have a search bar that says "search preference name". Click that search bar, and then type "javascript.enabled". You'll then see an option called "javascript.enabled" with it turned to True. To the right of that it should have an icon you can click (I can't really describe the icon its like two horizontal half arrows pointing in opposite directions). Click it and then it should turn the true to false. If it did then congrats you did it right and you turned it off.

If you wanna go the extra step you can even add an extra layer of security via a VPN but you shouldn't need to if you enabled bridging. But a tutorial for that is two google searches away. And if you had trouble following any of these steps then YouTube is your best-friend for more visual aid to follow along.

Now that you have the proper setup to browse these .onion links safely, If you wanted to hypothetically buy drugs from one of the marketplaces and wanted to access them but don't know where to go then tor.taxi will be your best friend. It gives access to the most user friendly markets to start out with alongside other good resources. From tor.taxi you could hypothetically go on DH and as I said previously buy whatever I've previously mentioned there.

I hope that helps. That's as much as I'm willing to say as I think with anything more it'll be considered sourcing and I'll be banned.

They said you can't overdose on nitazenes or fentanyl? If that's what you meant then well I'm not sure who told you that but they absolutely couldn't be further from the truth. Fentanyl and Nitazenes are amongst the most potent opioids in the world. Visually, the tiniest little spec of fentanyl can kill you (2-3 MG's) and microscopic pieces of nitazenes can can kill you (doses as low as 500 ug/micrograms). If you're saying the overdoses can be reversed then yes that's true: with a drug called naloxone (commonly referred to as narcan) medics can reverse it, but with nitazenes and fentanyl now being readily available (some hundreds of times more potent than fentanyl) it takes a ridiculous amount of Narcan to reverse it. Especially if you're intentionally committing suicide and just ingesting an entire gram or more of nitazenes. Something to note also is that since they're so potent the chance of success is nearly 1000%. Unless you have a medic who is right next to you on standby the moment you ingest it there's little to no chance they're bringing you back from a nitazene OD. With SN you need to worry about "what if this goes wrong and I end up waking up a vegetable?". With SN you have all these worries. However, with fentanyl or nitazenes, the success rate is an absolute guarantee compared to SN where it depends on seemingly 10+ factors which is a risk I wouldn't take.

Don't thank me. Thank you! Thank you for taking the time to answer my questions. It was really neat learning your perspective. It's so sad they force you guys to be so in line if there's only one way you can approach life. Truly believe in yourself. I promise you'll go on to do great things with your life regardless if you go to college or not. Best of luck to you friend.
Fr man I don't understand some of this people.
 
UbeLord

UbeLord

Just vibin
Jun 11, 2026
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Damn, this shit scares me. Lowkey a trip to Peru is starting to sound real nice
 
IsThisTheEnd?

IsThisTheEnd?

Mange
Aug 6, 2020
588
I've not actually watched it was it painful?
 
Iwashereonce

Iwashereonce

Specialist
Apr 25, 2019
369
We do not know he fasted, or that he took Aes, or that he took any other drug that could make things easier. Some people here are trying to scare us off from taking sn
 
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kilowatt

kilowatt

scumfuc
Sep 9, 2023
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''This doesn't look peaceful'' my ass. I don't understand the expectations people set for the death of their own if not another person's body. Catching the bus has never been and will never be a peaceful experience, in the true sense of it. Fighting against your mind's nature to keep your body alive does not align with the desire to simply close your eyes and cease to exist. That's where all the drug cocktails in SN procedures come in handy, reducing your awareness to what's unraveling.
To me it seems this individual had a fair exit, even if far from a perfect idealized scenario of how it could've went. Such videos circulate online for quite some time now. If you're afraid of some body shakes and muscles twitches reconsider your method or your choices.
 
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