Help Very very sucicidal right now

[Lara Francis]

God i dont know what to do or where to go !

 

[PatKat]

God i dont know what to do or where to go !

You can talk to me, what going on?

 

[Lara Francis]

Shall i just go ?
I am sorry
I am having a crisis
I really cant do this anymore
I am hurting so badly because i am not with my boy and i cant do it for other two months whilst i am waiting for the last court hearing

 

[fauna]

I'm here for you too, you shouldn't go

 

[Lara Francis]

I am so tired of my mind bringing me back to this dark place.
I hate it

 

[Roger]

Where are you now ?

 

[Kaput]

@Lara Francis so sorry you feel like this:(
Please hold on. ... if you go, you won't see him :(

 

[Lara Francis]

Nothing makes sense anymore

Where are you now ?

At home on my own

@Lara Francis so sorry you feel like this:(
Please hold on. ... if you go, you won't see him :(

He loves me so much and i love him the world over.thats why this is not fair !

 

[Roger]

Nothing makes sense anymore

At home on my own

Me too - well, I have my two dogs with me, for now.

Do I recall you saying that you lived near the APC suppliers ? That would be Hyde, right ?

 

[Kaput]

He loves me so much and i love him the world over.thats why this is not fair !

I wish i could remove your pain. No one deserves that. It's good you have each other! Dont go, @Lara Francis. Sending You Hugs

 

[FrankieMay]

I can't imagine how tough it is for you
Here if you want to talk (on the thread though, I can't pm yet)

Look after yourself xx

 

[PatKat]

I am so tired of my mind bringing me back to this dark place.
I hate it

Its is a vicious cycle. They can treat, but never cure. Hold on for your son is my best advice, you dont want him feeling this way. <3 I am always here if you need to talk to someone.

 

[Lara Francis]

Its a great shame that bullshit prolifers may be viewing this at some point and people may feel they cannot say what they feel anymore .
I guess i am putting people in a position,i am sorry.
I hate prolifers as much as i hate life.
Why cant they leave us alone.?

 

[Alchemist]

Hope you can find a way to feel better soon. Maybe walk a little and find a quiet place to relax.

 

[Roger]

Me too - well, I have my two dogs with me, for now.

Do I recall you saying that you lived near the APC suppliers ? That would be Hyde, right ?

I used to live near there as a kid, but I'm hundreds of miles away now.

 

[Lara Francis]

Me too - well, I have my two dogs with me, for now.

Do I recall you saying that you lived near the APC suppliers ? That would be Hyde, right ?

Yes.

 

[Grief]

Is there anywhere you can go that gives you some peace or solace; a change of scenery that is someplace better than where you are now? Or, anyone that you can talk with either online, via phone, or that will meet with you...A friend, family member, acquaintance, therapist? Please don't be alone and let your mind dwell on the darkness. Get past the crisis state before you make any decisions.

 

[Lara Francis]

I tell a lie.i am at home looking after my friends dog but even the dog has pissed off into other room !

 

[PatKat]

Its a great shame that bullshit prolifers may be viewing this at some point and people my feel they cannot say what they feel anymore .
I guess i am putting people in a position,i am sorry.
I hate prolifers as much as i hate life.
Why cant they leave us alone.?

I don't hate them or anyone they are people also we just disagree on certain subjects, and that is fine it's part of life. We have our opinions, they have theirs. I will definitely stand up if this gets to the protest level. I believe everyone has a right to their own bodies, and live without judgement of their choices. I just avoid the goodbye posts as it is very depressing to me. I will hang my flag high PatKat is here and this I will defend. I wouldnt be alive if I didnt have this forum to discuss me issues.

 

[Lara Francis]

Is there anywhere you can go that gives you some peace or solace; a change of scenery that is someplace better than where you are now? Or, anyone that you can talk with either online, via phone, or that will meet with you...A friend, family member, acquaintance, therapist? Please don't be alone and let your mind dwell on the darkness.

Its unfortunate that all my closest friends are away atm.i am just in a spiral of despair atm and it feels like i could be impulsive

 

[Jolene40]

Its a great shame that bullshit prolifers may be viewing this at some point and people my feel they cannot say what they feel anymore .
I guess i am putting people in a position,i am sorry.
I hate prolifers as much as i hate life.
Why cant they leave us alone.?

I know your pain. I am so so sick and apart from my boy just getting sicker in hospital. The pain of that supersedes anything I have ever known. Knowing that things are getting worse and that I will feel forced to end it to stop my horrific suffering and continued demise. It is hell like no other when you desperately want to be with your little one.
If there is any hope you can be reunited at some point can you hold out. Is that a possibility for you.
If you really are suffering so much mentally or physically that you cannot cope you know you will be supported here. Anyone who is not suffering can go swivel and we will prey they never end up in a position like we all are in.

 

[Roger]

Yes.

As I edited, I used to live near there as a kid, but I'm many miles away now. I lived in Denton. The 210 trolley bus from Manchester to Hyde passed through. I haven't been back for years, but as my own life nears its end I find myself thinking more about it.
Hope you don't mind me mentioning it ?

 

[GeorgeJL]

Hurry up order some estrogen to help you. LOL just kidding.

Sorry to hear about your situation. Just don't do any rash, take some deep breaths. You have to think this through. Sit down and start writing everything that is on your mind. Then burn it and say I release it into the universes hands. LOL Just kidding write everything down and then come and we will talk about it. You can PM me, I am a great problem solver.

 

[Lara Francis]

I don't hate them or anyone they are people also we just disagree on certain subjects, and that is fine it's part of life. We have our opinions, they have theirs. I will definitely stand up if this gets to the protest level. I believe everyone has a right to their own bodies, and live without judgement of their choices. I just avoid the goodbye posts as it is very depressing to me.

I feel like this is the only place that has people that really understand.
Thankyou xx

 

[Alchemist]

I feel like this is the only place that has people that really understand.
Thankyou xx

If you ever feel like talking or you need someone to vent, feel free to DM me.

 

[Lara Francis]

As I edited, I used to live near there as a kid, but I'm many miles away now. I lived in Denton. The 210 trolley bus from Manchester to Hyde passed through. I haven't been back for years, but as my own life nears its end I find myself thinking more about it.
Hope you don't mind me mentioning it ?

No not at all.
Maybe a last visit would be good.

 

[Roger]

My lovely wife came from Ashton. I first kissed her on 20 October 1966, married her 20 Feb 1967, and last kissed her 8 September 2018.

 

[TiredHorse]

I am so sorry, Lara. If it helps at all, imagine me sending you all my strength and hope, both for you and for your boy.

 

[Lara Francis]

Why did all this happen to me ?
I am a kind person.i never hurt anyone
I have to be assesed by a psychologist next week.i need to get my shit together if i have a chance of getting my boy back.

 

[PatKat]

Why did all this happen to me ?
I am a kind person.i never hurt anyone

I am the same way, I honestly do not know what happened or how I got here. Getting out is impossible at this point it seems.