craving for death
- Mar 1, 2023
I am at a really, really low point today. Thinking about suicide the whole day, but I feel too lethargic to attempt. I do have a plan, I‘ve prepared everything for ctb, and I really just want everything to be over as soon as possible. It feels like my brain‘s split in two different parts, one being incredibly destructive and just wants me to die, and another one trying to make me endure at least one more day. I hate it so much. I hate being such a coward. I can’t do this anymore and it hurts so much to live.