Qua
there's no turning back now
- Apr 30, 2023
- 76
I just want to let it out somewhere.
Im literally so fucking mad, I feel like every single thing annoys me even more and gets me closer to just bursting out and destroying my room. I'm just sitting there, forcing myself not to do shit because I don't trust myself enough to be sure now that I won't just loose control. And the anger makes me wanna cry so badly but I'm forcing it to stay inside since it's 2am and if I wake the child up my parents are gonna be mad at me. I want to throw myself out of the window, cut myself or just yeet everything I have across the room and break it. But here I am, forcing it all in, again. I always feel like I absolutely have to force everything in because if I did let it out i would create a fucking hell
Im literally so fucking mad, I feel like every single thing annoys me even more and gets me closer to just bursting out and destroying my room. I'm just sitting there, forcing myself not to do shit because I don't trust myself enough to be sure now that I won't just loose control. And the anger makes me wanna cry so badly but I'm forcing it to stay inside since it's 2am and if I wake the child up my parents are gonna be mad at me. I want to throw myself out of the window, cut myself or just yeet everything I have across the room and break it. But here I am, forcing it all in, again. I always feel like I absolutely have to force everything in because if I did let it out i would create a fucking hell