Venting vent about my current state

[HeartSayako]

I tried CTB and failed. I ended up in the hospital now and I'm certainly more of a disappointment to my family than I already am. My only and best friend is treating me like an asshole and being rude to me when I love him more than anything and he is being like this simply because of his psychology saying that I am just using him??? I'm literally not a malicious person and I don't have the courage to use anyone yet but someone I love, however he is the only person I love and trust with him treating me like this I have no more reasons to continue and I will try again as soon as I can

 

[HeartSayako]

What method did you try and what was the outcome for you to be hospitalised?

I suppose it ultimately all comes down to why you want to die in the first place but assuming your not sent to a psych ward you'll be free to try again and if it's really what you want then hopefully you'll have a better outcome and be free from whatever is ruining you. Welcome to the forum of no hope but all support.

I drugged myself with medication, I know it's not a very functional method, but I was out of resources at the time. I'll try again but in a more planned way and with functional methods and thank you.

 

[mortuarymary]

How you feeling now?

 

[HeartSayako]

How you feeling now?

depressed and frustrated for not being able to rest

 

[mortuarymary]

depressed and frustrated for not being able to rest

Try and sleep if you can especially if you're drugged up.