Using sleep as death practice.

[HermitLonerGuy]

So everynight before i fall off to sleep i use it as a simulated dying process.
I say to myself " this is me dying, i shall not wake up again and its okay"
Its sort of training myself to accept and not fear death at all.
It feels great and is exhilarating , i do it when im exhausted and just about to fall asleep.
you can call it my death meditation .
Its very exciting and helps me accept death.
im ready. Try it anytime u are tired and are about to fall asleep just pretend youre dying, its exciting

 

[FuneralCry]

I've never feared death. I find the thought of ceasing to exist to be very comforting and I always have done. There is nothing more ideal than being permanently gone from this world as the non existent have no concerns and problems, they are at rest.

Regular sleep doesn't offer me much relief as long as the chance of waking up the next day is there. I wish that dying is as easy as just choosing to never wake up, it's so unfair how it can be this difficult. But I'm pleased for you that you have found something to reduce your fear of death, as after all nobody should fear death. It isn't like humans can escape from it, our only true purpose as humans is to die.

 

[lionetta12]

So everynight before i fall off to sleep i use it as a simulated dying process.
I say to myself " this is me dying, i shall not wake up again and its okay"
Its sort of training myself to accept and not fear death at all.
It feels great and is exhilarating , i do it when im exhausted and just about to fall asleep.
you can call it my death meditation .
Its very exciting and helps me accept death.
im ready. Try it anytime u are tired and are about to fall asleep just pretend youre dying, its exciting

Since I was a kid until this day, I've never seen death as being any different from being asleep. I've always imagined that it's the same, but that when you die the dreams and horrible nightmares stop and there's just eternal peaceful sleep and blackness. Just pure nothingness and a forever state of being asleep. I think this is largely why I have never been scared of death. Sounds so peaceful and ideal.

 

[lachrymost]

I use this as a way to comfort myself. You never know, you really could never wake up.

 

[Sad_Sack]

Every single night I just try and will myself to not wake up. I also beg any powers that might be to please have mercy and end my suffering. I know it's dumb but I am just desperate at this point. I'm getting really close again to snapping and crossing the line to where I will be able attempt again. I need to make sure it works this time. I also need everything ready to go on a moments notice so I can just act on it.

 

[IntoTheLight]

Sleep is like death without the commitment.

 

[TAW122]

This is an interesting way to practice simulating what nonexistence feels like. I believe what you said is pretty logical since sleeping is just (metaphorically speaking) temporary unconsciousness and non-sentience.

 

[SamTam33]

I've never feared death. I find the thought of ceasing to exist to be very comforting and I always have done. There is nothing more ideal than being permanently gone from this world as the non existent have no concerns and problems, they are at rest.

Regular sleep doesn't offer me much relief as long as the chance of waking up the next day is there. I wish that dying is as easy as just choosing to never wake up, it's so unfair how it can be this difficult. But I'm pleased for you that you have found something to reduce your fear of death, as after all nobody should fear death. It isn't like humans can escape from it, our only true purpose as humans is to die.

I totally identify with this. I haaaate falling asleep because it means that I'll have to wake up.

Last night I had some dream where I was begging myself to stay asleep because it meant I'd die. I woke up. It was heartbreaking.

There are days where I wake up but won't open my eyes. Trying to will myself to go back to sleep and die. Crying with my eyes closed as soon as I wake up is one of the strangest sensations I've ever felt.

It's evil/stupid how you can only control your body up until a certain extent. Willing yourself to die should be an actual thing that can happen.

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

I totally identify with this. I haaaate falling asleep because it means that I'll have to wake up.

Last night I had some dream where I was begging myself to stay asleep because it meant I'd die. I woke up. It was heartbreaking.

There are days where I wake up but won't open my eyes. Trying to will myself to go back to sleep and die. Crying with my eyes closed as soon as I wake up is one of the strangest sensations I've ever felt.

It's evil/stupid how you can only control your body up until a certain extent. Willing yourself to die should be an actual thing that can happen.

I currently been sleeping 14 hours or so a day since Saturday, im sick with covid and while it sucks ass i dont mind the sleeping and tiredness part. If i die with this covid it would be ideal.

 

[Seiko]

I fucking love sleep. My days are filled with endless boredom and a complete lack of aim. Even the feeling of being sleepy brings me peace, knowing that there's an incumbent seven-to-eight hours of mind-numbing-ness that's to come. I wish I had my CTB method already handy to make it last forever,

 

[Forever Sleep]

I do this too. Someone the other day recommemded lieing on your right side to better aim the liquid (SN mix) at the stomach sphincter. So I lay on my right side and try and imagine what it will be like and hope that it won't be too painful. Even the stupid details come into my head. Feel like I should lay down thick polythene first and I wonder how that will feel- not a primary concern I know but it's weird how your mind wanders.

 

[marcy2022]

I think the feeling of sleep and death are just opposite side of the same thing or maybe the same but not quite. From my failed attempt I remember drifting away knowing that finally I'll find peace. However sleep for me is different. I have insomnia and when I do sleep, I try to stay asleep as if trying not to wake up but you wake up and the circle keeps going on and on.