Useless to society

[Funeralprincess]

Along with severe heartbreak as my motivator to commit suicide, there is also the fact I've lost so much potential and am now useless to society. Is anyone else in that situation where you HAD potential to make good money and thrive in a good career, but then lost it due to your disability? It just further reminds me that socially I am a liability, not an asset. It constantly is a triggering reminder that I am essentially not valuable in the ways I once was, and dying eliminates a lot of risk that would be put on to others by my existence… hell, I can't even get an internship and I've been trying the last two years to get one and it's my senior year. Even companies confirm I'm basically not valuable at all…. There is no way up in life for people like me, only down from here and it fucking sucks.

At this point I'm sitting around rotting and wasting away… I hate this world and the most vile part is none of us even asked to be here…. We are non consensually brought here and left to fend for ourselves and that's what's so disgusting and dehumanizing about being alive

 

[hamvil]

I am in the same situation. I was in a good spot, good and creative job, well paid, with a lot of responsibilities. All it took was a silly tweet and 10 years of effort were taken from me. After changing three jobs and three countries I have now a stable job but I know that I will never be more than I was before. I tried to build back my career but I am too tired and I have lost the motivation. I do not have anything else to do or to offer to this world. I have no friends, my marriage is empty, and I am unable to build connections with other people. So trust when I say that I totally understand how you feel. I think we had our shot at life, we enjoyed for a little while and now it is gone. Do you also wake up terrified about the fact that you have a full day in front of you?

 

[jodes2]

I was 20 when my life turned to this but I had been in a promising position academically up to that point. Had a good job for a year in my gap year. Now I just have no plans and every day is empty. Definitely useless to society

 

[Funeralprincess]

I am in the same situation. I was in a good spot, good and creative job, well paid, with a lot of responsibilities. All it took was a silly tweet and 10 years of effort were taken from me. After changing three jobs and three countries I have now a stable job but I know that I will never be more than I was before. I tried to build back my career but I am too tired and I have lost the motivation. I do not have anything else to do or to offer to this world. I have no friends, my marriage is empty, and I am unable to build connections with other people. So trust when I say that I totally understand how you feel. I think we had our shot at life, we enjoyed for a little while and now it is gone. Do you also wake up terrified about the fact that you have a full day in front of you?

Yes. I'm 25 years old and every day I wake up I'm filled with fear and anxiety. I've been
Hospitalized for the heart issues it's caused me

I was 20 when my life turned to this but I had been in a promising position academically up to that point. Had a good job for a year in my gap year. Now I just have no plans and every day is empty. Definitely useless to society

I was 22 when my life fell apart. I'm 25 now and it's just continued to get worse and worse. I hate it here lol

 

[hamvil]

Yes. I'm 25 years old and every day I wake up I'm filled with fear and anxiety. I've been
Hospitalized for the heart issues it's caused me

I was 22 when my life fell apart. I'm 25 now and it's just continued to get worse and worse. I hate it here lol

I can relate with that. I wake up in the same conditions. I feel so tired about all this and I feel so lonely. I keep making more and more mistakes everyday.

 

[chloramine]

Our society's fixation on productivity and output is so screwed up. Getting bombarded by reminders of that sucks so much. I've definitely been in that place where I couldn't do anything and everyday just feels like you're being judged and piled onto. Even now that I'm about to try doing post secondary, my family keeps suggesting that I could work simultaneously and does not seem to understand that school by itself is likely going to wreck me.

 

[Funeralprincess]

I can relate with that. I wake up in the same conditions. I feel so tired about all this and I feel so lonely. I keep making more and more mistakes everyday.

I'm sorry to hear that. It's truly hell