useless and hopeless

[404]

i've been trying to improve myself and recover a bit but i feel like i failed already

i thought maybe being interested in doing something would help me cope with my problems a little bit but when i did that i found out that im awful and immediately gave up

i tried doing this for a few years now and it still doesn't work

im absolutely hopeless and useless i don't really know why im still trying

 

[Painless_end]

I have the same problem. I've got a complete lack of the brain anatomy that is responsible for driving higher level motivation that helps one to get and maintain a job, seek a relationship or marriage, have kids and responsibilities etc and consequently I am also incapable of higher level handling of situations in front of me. And this is not subjective opinion but objective truth. I have certain markers or manifestations of a less developed reptilian brain on some parts of my anatomy that reflect the lack of actual mental strength and capacity for growth.

I wish I would die. I have wished it for over 10 years. The only problem is the methods aren't painless at all. Or I would be long gone.

Sometimes I wish I could just hold my breath until I passed away peacefully.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

The feeling of being useless i sso much tiring I really can relate to that. And methods are limited depending on your country of residence. Still trying means you've not given up hope completely and I can also relate to this fact. You're really not alone among us here who want to leave but have not given up completely. it's really tiring. I'm trapped in a similar situation. I hope you can find peace.

Edit. 404 ... nice nickname for here .,.. 404 websever error, not available

 

[alonely]

could have written this post myself. so tired of trying. empathy.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be so awful having to suffer like that. But anyway I wish you the best, I understand that it's tiring feeling trapped here.

 

[IIDARKIISHIKARI]

Sounds like this was pulled straight from my brain as well. I hate it so much