Used meds for 2 months

[dyingslowly]

Hi, I am not interested in writing books here but I want to hear your feedback. I was on meds one was SSRi and other was a benzo xanax. Both worked wonderfully initially but overtime lost their effect quite rapidly. When I took my first xan, it was the best day of my life feeling that dizzy feeling, everything came to a halt in my life the constant pain and anxiety. After couple of weeks the SSRi also started to show it's effect which I loved so much that I wanted my life to continue like that except a few things that came along was it is quite hard to explain but I liked to be impotent like having no sexual desire due to the side effects, It finally felt that I have defeated nature and gotten rid of the things that make the man imperfect that I will never simp again to porn or anything like that, I became more productive and such, But overtime like after 3 weeks the desire started to come back I was like what the fk? then I tried to disturb the doze to get the effect like missing meds for days and such nothing was achieved, similarly bezos too lost their effect. I wanted to blow my head off but that same effect couldn't be achieved I restarted the meds nothing happened. So I stopped taking them altogether, now I want to hear from you guys what you think? How I can be impotent, not have any sexual desire, not have any dandruff due to SSRi, and at the same time not be suicidal and depressed? any ideas other than being dead.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

How I can be impotent

Being castrated, becoming an eunuch.

Psych meds and especially Benzos build up tolerance like other kinds of drugs - it's inevitable.

Meds won't solve whether you're suicidal or not when external factors make you suicidal. Therapy can also help depending on your personal circumstances. This is a complex thing and there are only individual ways to solve it.

 

[Otaku]

I will send you a PM OP.