Hi all,
Still trying to recover, still not sure how to, but I am trying everything that I can think of that I haven't already tried. Trying to live as normal of a life as possible in the meanwhile which still includes trying to use social medias again and to try and talk to my old friends again and just "be myself".
Got suggested my exe's sister to follow on Instagram just some minutes ago and accidently clicked on their profile when I was trying to click the x button, got a new phone with a big screen some days ago and still trying to get used to it. Saw in the biography that they had something about their child having autism. It kind of upset me and hit me hard because I asked when I got pregnant if his family had any illnesses, history of autism, bipolar disorders, etc, that he was aware of, because I know my family does not and I was reading into my own family medical history which was alright. He refused to give me any real answers to the question. It made me a little wary and scared that he wouldn't answer that. It makes me upset to accidently now discover this since he made me pregnant and wanted me to be a single mom when he knew that there was a chance that I could've had a higher than average risk of birthing a child with a disability or an illness, without informing me of that, and while also expecting me to take care of that child all by myself while he would not be a part of raising it. I just don't get why someone would do something like this to me, I don't understand what the purpose was. I feel hurt and violated. I had explained many times before I got pregnant that I don't think I could raise a disabled or challenged child on my own or at all because I know that I'm not capable of that. Just wish that I wasn't lied to and that I could know and understand why he did this to me.
Just trying to get over the situation, but it's hard to because I have zero answers to why this happened to me amongst other things that they did to me.
Still trying to recover, still not sure how to, but I am trying everything that I can think of that I haven't already tried. Trying to live as normal of a life as possible in the meanwhile which still includes trying to use social medias again and to try and talk to my old friends again and just "be myself".
Got suggested my exe's sister to follow on Instagram just some minutes ago and accidently clicked on their profile when I was trying to click the x button, got a new phone with a big screen some days ago and still trying to get used to it. Saw in the biography that they had something about their child having autism. It kind of upset me and hit me hard because I asked when I got pregnant if his family had any illnesses, history of autism, bipolar disorders, etc, that he was aware of, because I know my family does not and I was reading into my own family medical history which was alright. He refused to give me any real answers to the question. It made me a little wary and scared that he wouldn't answer that. It makes me upset to accidently now discover this since he made me pregnant and wanted me to be a single mom when he knew that there was a chance that I could've had a higher than average risk of birthing a child with a disability or an illness, without informing me of that, and while also expecting me to take care of that child all by myself while he would not be a part of raising it. I just don't get why someone would do something like this to me, I don't understand what the purpose was. I feel hurt and violated. I had explained many times before I got pregnant that I don't think I could raise a disabled or challenged child on my own or at all because I know that I'm not capable of that. Just wish that I wasn't lied to and that I could know and understand why he did this to me.
Just trying to get over the situation, but it's hard to because I have zero answers to why this happened to me amongst other things that they did to me.
