Ups and downs of recovery

[pinstripe]

Post if you're having an up day or a down day and give a brief explanation. Nothing crazy just something where you can look back and track your progress and get some love and encouragement from others.

Example:

Up

Heard from friends and was invited to an activity. Got some laundry done too..

 

[Cloud Busting]

I love this and I hope this thread gains traction. IMO it should be stickied

Drinking wine and wanna polish off the whole bottle while bf sleeping but he would kill me lol

 

[pinstripe]

Down

Have been hit with like 5 surprise bills all at once. World feels brutal and predatory. Death feels like the safest most appealing outcome.

 

[GhostInTheMachine]

Was up, but now it's down.

I'm just really tired right now.

 

[tooBadTooLate]

Feeling up. Went to the psychiatrist a few days ago and got some meds. They helped a lot, to the point that I don't feel like I want to CtB anymore, although the noose that I have hanging scares me a bit when I come across it. I'm worried that this won't last, but I suppose it's good to appreciate it while it stays.

 

[Merocero]

Down, feeling real bad lately, relapsed after a few days and i feel lonely af,, waiting for my meds to run out to go to a psychiatrist too(i cant afford it myself but my mom will pay if i run out of meds)

 

[princexhhn]

Up

Classes were suspended today so I slept in. I was just chilling today honestly. I also hate my classmates, college is a fucking clownfest, so maybe the fact that I didn't have to see them also contributed to my good mood

 

[westerly_merlin]

Up,

Went bouldering today. Felt good to work my body and while I am climbing I am not thinking or feeling. Tired now and will sleep well tonight.

 

[MydnytSorrow]

Down

It's one of those days where I feel like I don't belong anywhere. Even at work, surrounded by people, I still feel like I am wearing the cloak of invisibility.

 

[Cloud Busting]

Up

Scared of the uncertainty of life. Putting my hope in Buddhism cuz I want liberation and an end to rebirth. Even if it's not true, if it helps me live a full life who fucking cares.

Scared always of the future and where it will lead so i just need something to believe in and aside from suicide or abusing alcohol and drugs religion is the only thing that has a clear path and I think it will make my life enriched

Didn't fight with my boss and didn't feel responsible for her stress for once and a good friend messaged me to discuss spiritual matters and imma do a tarot reading on him awesome good day yall

 

[Cloud Busting]

Down, felt hopeless today, was in the grip of past memories, unable to escape.

oscillating between giving up and trying

Never ending battle

 

[lamy's sacred sleep]

Down

Didn't do much of anything

 

[zombiegirl]

Down

last friend left me (this time it wasn't actually my fault, wow) and i've been hating myself extra hard, thoughts of suicide are back. but i'm hoping to make new, less toxic friends eventually.

studying music theory to try and cope