Awake47
Member
- Jul 9, 2023
- 43
I visited a department who helps victims of SA. I was able to sit down with two detectives and went over the options for me to take legal action against the perpetrator to ensure that he doesn't come after me if I end up placing any orders against him. I am going to be writing a statement and they will be opening an investigation. Nearly my entire life I've been called a liar, a manipulator, told I'm gaslighting people, etc. And have constantly been victim blamed to the point where that was all I expected when I reached out for help but shocked that these people actually gave a shit for once. I feel some relief but am still struggling to find any self worth because I will always see my body as a vessel for trauma and abuse, which is the reason why I want to transition as well. I just want to be reborn into a body which I can actually call my own and have self love for. I've been severely depressed ever since the SA and it's hard to kick these suicidal thoughts and urges aside but let me assure you that I am in a safe space and have plenty of support . I am also thankful that I have this site so that I can speak my mind freely and just be myself without any judgement ond glad people here don't try to cast me aside or exile me . I'll definitely keep everyone updated. Have a wonderful day/night <3
