Update to my adventure

[TiredAndReadyToGo]

Hey guys,

Thought I'd give a little update on my plans, I got a script for Meto, it was surprisingly easy compared to what I thought it would be. It is sort of empowering to know I have the fabled "key" to most successful attempts. I picked up an extra bottle of Diphenhydramine tablets so I have roughly 260 tablets at 25mg a piece.

After seeing the advice of other OD threads, I picked up a pill crusher to make it easier to get it all down. I'm going with the stat method of Meto and will likely update the thread once I take it.

I am just trying to figure out what I want for my last meal at this point. I'm excited but also really nervous. I wanted to thank you guys for all the support you've given, it means the world to me, there isn't really anyone who I can talk about this stuff with.

This community is amazing and much love SS friends.

 

[realjunes]

What is your method? When is your last meal?

 

[TiredAndReadyToGo]

What is your method? When is your last meal?

I'm taking a massive overdose of Diphenhydramine (benadryl), taking close to 6g's which is a much higher lethal amount than I am seen posted.

My last meal, I might pick up a slice of pizza from my favourite pizza place since I can't afford a whole pizza.

 

[realjunes]

When? I want to be here for support, if possible, as I have with others. I had not heard of benadryl method.
You must be USA to call it benadryl. Thanks

 

[WhiteDespair]

Benadryl? Good luck. If you live you're going to have the worst hangover.

Also, you made me think of: Republica - Ready to Go

You get a point.

 

[TiredAndReadyToGo]

When? I want to be here for support, if possible, as I have with others. I had not heard of benadryl method.
You must be USA to call it benadryl. Thanks

Thank you that means alot, I'm doing it tonight most likely around 10 or 11pm. I've read reports thag doses this high can be lethal in as little as an hour but I know it very well could take hours to fully get me. I just am hopeful that I am one of the lucky few who experience somnolence. Making sure to barricade myself in my room so I can't leave and unplugging phones so I can't call for help. Yeah, I figured if i used a brand name more people would recognize it.

 

[realjunes]

Do you intend to post as you go along, or will you prefer quiet support from us?

 

[realjunes]

Can you not get SN, or do you just prefer to not get it?

 

[TiredAndReadyToGo]

Benadryl? Good luck. If you live you're going to have the worst hangover.

Also, you made me think of: Republica - Ready to Go

You get a point.

Yeah, I know it will be an interesting OD but it should be plently lethal at the dose I am taking and hopefully combining the Meto will prevent vomiting and will help process the powder i'm crushing it into faster.

Never heard that song, I'll have to check it out! Glad I could bring something nice to mind for ya haha

Can you not get SN, or do you just prefer to not get it?

In Canada it's a massively restricted substance so I didn't have the oppotunity to get it unless it was in prague powder which wouldn't really work for this.

Do you intend to post as you go along, or will you prefer quiet support from us?

I will most likely keep updating this post until I can't type anymore. I will also try to self ban so i don't leave an inactive account

never heard of beanadyl OD deaths

There have been a few athletes and the type who have managed to CTB this way. I know some people trip using this method but I also just found out officially that I have heart issues so I am hoping this can exploit those.

 

[realjunes]

TRG - What time is it right now where you are right now? It is about 5:30 pm central US time for me.
I am listening now, first time, to Republica, "Ready to
Go" official video. Over 13 million listeners Youtube.
Seems fitting for sure.

 

[Hunter100]

I'm taking a massive overdose of Diphenhydramine (benadryl), taking close to 6g's which is a much higher lethal amount than I am seen posted.

My last meal, I might pick up a slice of pizza from my favourite pizza place since I can't afford a whole pizza.

This is not a way I would want to CTB. Not only can it be a horrible way to go, It can also take up to 2 hours for a "severe overdose" to die. In the meantime you could have a whole list of things happening.
overdose of Benadryl may result in extreme drowsiness, blurred vision, increased heart rate, confusion, seizures – even coma. Other symptoms may include dry mouth, nausea, vomiting, unsteadiness, high blood pressure, and hallucinations.

I just hope you have done all your research on this method. Good luck.

 

[TiredAndReadyToGo]

This is not a way I would want to CTB. Not only can it be a horrible way to go, It can also take up to 2 hours for a "severe overdose" to die. In the meantime you could have a whole list of things happening.
overdose of Benadryl may result in extreme drowsiness, blurred vision, increased heart rate, confusion, seizures – even coma. Other symptoms may include dry mouth, nausea, vomiting, unsteadiness, high blood pressure, and hallucinations.

I just hope you have done all your research on this method. Good luck.

I know it can be a bad way to go but I am out of options, I have actively been trying the night night method for almost two weeks to no avail. I need something that once I am in I can not back out of. I've read reports where it takes two hours, 10 hours, even up to 72 hours. But I won't be found until 11am at earliest so it will atleast get into my system and hopefully have done the job by then. I am also going to potentially drink a little before I do it but not sure to be honest want to check into it first.

 

[lymbo]

I know it can be a bad way to go but I am out of options, I have actively been trying the night night method for almost two weeks to no avail. I need something that once I am in I can not back out of. I've read reports where it takes two hours, 10 hours, even up to 72 hours. But I won't be found until 11am at earliest so it will atleast get into my system and hopefully have done the job by then. I am also going to potentially drink a little before I do it but not sure to be honest want to check into it first.

whats your reason for ctb ?

 

[TiredAndReadyToGo]

TRG - What time is it right now where you are right now? It is about 5:30 pm central US time for me.
I am listening now, first time, to Republica, "Ready to
Go" official video. Over 13 million listeners Youtube.
Seems fitting for sure.

I'm in EST so just an hour ahead of you. Totally agree it does feel like a fitting song for the occassion.

 

[Hunter100]

I'm in EST so just an hour ahead of you. Totally agree it does feel like a fitting song for the occassion.

I'm on the east coast also.
When I was younger I took about 18 Benadryl to "trip" it was the worse experience ever! Hopefully since you are taking so much you will skip that part entirely. How much will you be taking again?

 

[realjunes]

TRG have you tried yet to see i your benadryl will crush up and mix with water, or are you gonna try to mix in a sma

 

[TiredAndReadyToGo]

I'm on the east coast also.
When I was younger I took about 18 Benadryl to "trip" it was the worse experience ever! Hopefully since you are taking so much you will skip that part entirely. How much will you be taking again?

That is what I am hoping as well but if it happens, it happens. I will be taking roughly 250 pills with a strength of 25mg to total 6.25g's. From what I've read you want at least 30-40mg per kg, so I wanted to make sure I was at coming close to doubling it. Lost all hope recommended 60x50mg as a MLD.

TRG have you tried yet to see i your benadryl will crush up and mix with water, or are you gonna try to mix in a sma

I am actually in the process of crushing them up into somewhay of a powder right now. It hurts the hands to crush up this many tablets 2 or 3 at a time lol.

 

[realjunes]

TRG have you tried yet to see i your benadryl will crush up and mix with water, or are you gonna try to mix in a small portion of pudding / applesauce? Did you say what time it is for you?

That is what I am hoping as well but if it happens, it happens. I will be taking roughly 250 pills with a strength of 25mg to total 6.25g's. From what I've read you want at least 30-40mg per kg, so I wanted to make sure I was at coming close to doubling it. Lost all hope recommended 60x50mg as a MLD.

I am actually in the process of crushing them up into somewhay of a powder right now. It hurts the hands to crush up this many tablets 2 or 3 at a time lol.

do you have a coffee grinder or a smoothie mixer? Or put in foil or wax paper and roll over them with a big canned good? BTW I just went and read that alcohol and benadryl together suppress the central nervous system (CNS). Is that what you have in mind. Copy on you being EST time.

 

[WhiteDespair]

There is no way I'd crush 250 pills with my hands. You get some credit if you're not using tools.

Looks like we're all est down here

 

[realjunes]

What I meant to say earlier, is that I read one can mixed the crushed tablets with a very small amount of yogurt, pudding, applesause to make it easier to swallow.

 

[TiredAndReadyToGo]

TRG have you tried yet to see i your benadryl will crush up and mix with water, or are you gonna try to mix in a small portion of pudding / applesauce? Did you say what time it is for you?

do you have a coffee grinder or a smoothie mixer? Or put in foil or wax paper and roll over them with a big canned good? BTW I just went and read that alcohol and benadryl together suppress the central nervous system (CNS). Is that what you have in mind. Copy on you being EST time.

I appreicate the idea but I'm in a hotel room so I don't have anything else to use to crush them in a controlled way.

I was ideally going for that as iirc alcohol exacerbate the drowsy effect so I was hoping it would help me just go to sleep and not wake up but am prepared to go through all the side effects before I CTB if that's what's in the cards.

What I meant to say earlier, is that I read one can mixed the crushed tablets with a very small amount of yogurt, pudding, applesause to make it easier to swallow.

I would but it's either I get the slice for my last meal or get a little yogurt so I guess i am mixing the powder with water. Figured the powder would be absorded faster so even if I do vomit I should have enough in my system.

There is no way I'd crush 250 pills with my hands. You get some credit if you're not using tools.

Looks like we're all est down here

Thanks haha, yeah crushing them manually is a pain in the ass imo but it needs to be done, might leave a few uncrushed and take both tablets and powder but not certain (if anyone has input on that more than happy to hear it)

 

[jgm63]

Wishing you the best and hoping it all goes okay.....

 

[realjunes]

Put them in a bag, and roll over with car tire? Anyway, it seems to me, just opinion, that it shouldn't make difference if you swallow some whole.

 

[jgm63]

Can you use the underside of a table spoon for crushing ?
Sorry if this is already obvious.....

 

[TiredAndReadyToGo]

Put them in a bag, and roll over with car tire? Anyway, it seems to me, just opinion, that it shouldn't make difference if you swallow some whole.

I don't drive, so I don't have access to that unfortunately.

Can you use the underside of a table spoon for crushing ?
Sorry if this is already obvious.....

Thank you for your suggestion but I don't even have one, I am stuck relying upon the manual pill crusher I have. It starts getting to the wrists but its whatever, I'm going to take a break for a few minutes while I go get my slice

 

[realjunes]

Have a drink to help things all the way round

 

[TiredAndReadyToGo]

I want to say as well, I appreicate all the responses and suggestions people are offering. The fact that there is anyone out there still willing to help means a lot to me

 

[Neverod]

Hope everything goes as planned and you manage to do what you want in the end.
Be sure to put a "don't disturb" sign in the door or something, it would be weird and hard to explain what are you doing to someone that came in.

 

[jgm63]

If you're in a hotel, then I would have thought that someone would be able to give you a spoon from somewhere....
Of course, I might be wrong.....

 

[TiredAndReadyToGo]

If you're in a hotel, then I would have thought that someone would be able to give you a spoon from somewhere....
Of course, I might be wrong.....

I would have thought that too but it's more of an Inn so they give out plastic utensils and paper plates so I didn't think it would work out. Thank for your thoughts though man, any way to make it easier is always nice

Hope everything goes as planned and you manage to do what you want in the end.
Be sure to put a "don't disturb" sign in the door or something, it would be weird and hard to explain what are you doing to someone that came in.

Definitely, been at this one all week and it's something I've had on the door for the majority of the time, just so I don't have to worry about being found until I am due to check out (pun intended) I'm grateful for your kind words and wishes and can't put into words how much all the support from the community means. I don't have anyone in my real life let alone anyone who would understand or support my decision so this is comforting