I fell in love with a hook up partner. He mostly just used me for sex and never loved me back. Because I loved him I allowed him to use me for sex for eight years but across this period we only hooked up about a dozen times. I have not seen him for five years but still he is all I think about. I think about him daily whenever my mind isn't occupied by anything else it is on him. I am no longer in touch with him because he asked me to stop contacting him because I was contacting him too frequently, desperate for his attention. I am sad that nothing became of this even though he treated me badly. I feel that he is the best that I have done and will ever do in my life as far as how attractive, smart, fun, funny and kind he was. There will be no better and no other for me. He was it. Everything stops there.