NSFW Unintentional hookup

[willitpass]

So I made a new friend about a month or so ago. We've bonded over a lot of shared interests and personality traits and talked a lot about our personal traumas. We initially met online but have no met in person twice. We were pretty strictly just friends. But he came over yesterday and one thing led to another and we ended up having sex and he ultimately ended up staying the night on a whim. I'm not sure what this means for us or where this is headed or what, but the problem is I want to CTB soon. And I feel even more conflicted about when to do it after this. I would hate for him to go home today and I CTB tonight and then him think it was something he did. This is all convoluted now and I hate it. Fuck. This wasn't how things were supposed to play out.

 

[LittleJem]

I told a new relationship in January that I was/am a suicidal depressive.

I kinda like to warn people. I don't think there is anything wrong with telling them. And they can't stop you.
ps I hope you had a really good evenign and enough to take your mind off the suffering x

 

[juraviel]

well looks like things are looking up a bit in your life but i think you're choosing to view them negatively. which we as humans have the ability to do, always. i don't think that's very wise.

plus, you know, there's no unintentional sex other than rape. i think you mean spontaneous, in heat of passion. why would that be bad i don't know did you cheat on somebody, if not, there's nothing wrong with it.

 

[day]

You could always state your will to simply just be friends or you can later clarify in some note/email left to them?

Best of luck OP.

 

[sevenkarmas]

This creates a real paradox. People have many reasons why they want to CTB. Sometimes it's because of physical pain. Sometimes because of financial troubles. Others because of societal pressures or something that we did that brought embarrassment to ourselves or family. However, many of us feel abandoned and lonely. That's part of the reason we participate in this forum.

No judgement here, and I don't know why you are here (your reasons for CTB).

 

[Das Nichts]

I'm i a somewhat similar situation. I'm very upfront about my depression and the suicidal thoughts. The
person is ofc inclined to help me. The sex is great, best I had in my life actually.

Currently I'm having a strong depressive episode and i find it easier to just be left alone.
Having someone around you definitely makes things more complicated which I don't like.