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j888

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how do you make peace and accept the fact that you will die before completing all your hopes and dreams?

theres things ill never get to experience in this life and im having trouble coming to terms with it. im not going to ctb soon, but within the next 2-4 years, so i'll have some time and im gonna try to complete as much of my bucket list as possible. but theres things ill never get to do

im into lolita fashion so i hope ill be able to get my first dress within the next few years. i want to dye my hair for the first time and maybe get some piercings. im spending as much time as i can finishing lots of games and animes

ill never get to go to japan and see concerts of bands i like. i've loved cats my whole life but ill never be able to have my own. ill never have a girlfriend/wife and get married. im most distraught about never being able to see my long distance best friends in person again. i haven't seen them in person for 6 years, and im losing hope that ill ever see them again in this lifetime.

i feel like someone on their deathbed trying their best to come to terms with the fact they're dying. im only 18 but i wont be living much longer. im just gonna try to spend my last years to the fullest. i hope i can make it to 21, smoke for a few months, then die
 
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