Unemployed for a year, now I'm losing my home

[cowplantabduction]

My friends in the city offered to let me live with them a couple years ago, since I was stuck living with my abusive father with no way out (he lives in the middle of nowhere with no public transportation, and I can't drive, so I couldn't even get a job to start saving money). Since coming here I've had very little luck with jobs....I dropped out of college so the only work I can do is entry-level retail/fast food jobs. And I absolutely fucking suck at them with my autism and anxiety. I got fired from my last job a year ago and now it's a struggle to even get an interview....I apply for jobs every single day and only get rejections. They say McDonald's will hire anyone, but they won't hire me!

And now my friends (they're a couple) are buying a house....they just told me I have to move out by mid-September. My only option is going back to my dad's house. I can't do it. I would rather die. Not only is he a violent piece of shit who threatened me with a gun, but I know I'll have no future there with no possibility of employment.

I would rather be dead than back there or homeless, so I guess that's what I have to do. I knew my life was over when I dropped out of college, this was inevitable.

 

[Dejected 55]

I feel you... I lost my job last June... been a little over a year now... and I am just waiting for my money to run out and then I have no choice but to die because I will lose my house and everything else. I can't be homeless. I have to find the courage to die before that happens while I still have some control over what happens to me.

 

[unluckysadness]

so fucking unfair situation. i'm disabled since 4 years. i'd like to leave before things get worse

 

[Karera]

I'll probably be in a similar boat eventually, lived with abusive parents and still do and have been basically unemployed my whole life, I haven't had a job for more than 2 months and I'm just waiting for any excuse to ctb (been doing nothing for 3 years at least..). My heart aches for you, I hate hearing how much misery others go through when it's something they don't deserve, can't say the same for 99% of the others who I'm forced to share this planet with. I hope you're able to put an end to your suffering. :( <3

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I hear you OP. I've been searching job wise for over a year… it's brutal.

but you don't deserve to be in an abusive place. I understand not wanting to go back lest you risk your safety uncontrollably.

we're here with you.

 

[starlightstarbright]

I lost my job a year ago and have been stuck with my psychologically abusive parents ever since. I keep trying to tell myself that it's just words, they've never touched me, but they keep dehumanizing me and restricting my freedom in ways that I frankly thought they'd be better than to ever do. My mistake.

I sincerely feel they've gotten worse with age because I've developed my own personality and don't blindly agree with them anymore. So now they feel compelled to push me into proverbial corners that they didn't need to resort to before. In their eyes, I deserve it for my uncooperativeness. Classic justification of abuse. "If they'd just listen to me, I wouldn't be forced to --" Oh shut the f*** up.

I've attempted to end my life a few times now because of being stuck with them, but failed each time (obviously). I hear you when you say you'd rather be dead than back with your dad. Some people truly make life not worth living. If only karma were real, then they'd die first rather than the people they abuse being driven to suicide.

Literally all I need is a job so I can move out. If I could move out, I'd be able to live happily like I did before. But to hell with the unemployed, I guess. I'm so sorry to hear you're stuck in this situation too.

 

[Lyn]

I feel you... I've been looking for a job (literally any job, dirty job, dangerous job) for more than a year. They don't even accept me for washing dishes...
And I'm being on the brinck of becoming homeless.
This constance anxiety is driving me insane.

I really hope you'll be able to sort this out , though. Wish you the best, kind soul.
Hugs.