Unavoidable helplessness

[OCDsufferer]

I don't even know how people can find hope in such a miserable society as that most of us live in. I'm viewed as a woman by others instead of the sexless being I am. It's only a matter of time I am SA'ed yet again. Tons of other women are in this situation, sorry most, women are in this situation. And what can we do? We live under a patriarchal state where we are either prostitutes or mothers. I'm utterly desperate my life in this regard is very bad and even around me all I hear are horror stories, I open social media it's impossible to escape there, I play a videogame it's impossible to escape there.

I need to CTB I'm tired of feeling completely powerless. At least my death is something they cannot take away for me.