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Demian

Demian

Experienced
Mar 25, 2024
245
Hello

Which type of suicidal person are you?

The types below are not exclusive, and a patient can present a combination of characteristics, which is my case except for option 5. I have: Irritability / Anhedonia / Hopelessness / Guilt and worthlessness / Long-term planning / Emotionally numb / Obsessive thoughts

1 - Aggressive: expresses their suicidal ideation impulsively and angrily (Impulsivity / Irritability / Self-mutilation / Troubled relationships with others).

2 - Melancholic: introspective and silent about their feelings. Melancholy is associated with deep sadness and extreme despondency (Anhedonia / Hopelessness / Guilt and worthlessness / Long-term planning).

3 - Dissociative or apathetic: they don't show many emotions. They seem disconnected from the world around them and from their own emotions.(Depersonalization / Emotional dissociation / Feeling of emptiness)

4 - Anxious: Suicidal ideation in this profile is often related to extreme anxiety and constant fear.(Obsessive thoughts / Panic attacks / Feeling "trapped")

5 - Manipulative or ambivalent: Although rarer, some patients may use suicidal ideation as a form of emotional manipulation, usually to get attention or support from family members or partners.(Repeated threats / Ambivalence)
 
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Seered Doom

Seered Doom

A nihilist going through an unrelinquished Hell
Sep 9, 2023
992
A mix of 1, 2, 3, and 4 if I'm honest.
(Irritability, Self mutilation, Troubled relationships with others, Hopelessness, Guilt and worthlessness, Long-term planning, Depersonalization, Derealization, Emotional dissociation, Feeling of emptiness, Panic attacks, Feeling trapped)
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
5,158
I feel like I belong to the N/A category.
 
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verdedefome

verdedefome

Member
Oct 9, 2024
57
Mostly melancholic for sure, a little bit of dissociative or apathetic.
 
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-Link-

Member
Aug 25, 2018
766
Using those descriptions, I'm a mix between Melancholic, Dissociative/Apathetic, and Anxious... specifically a deep sadness, a disconnection from the world around me (but still in touch with my emotions), and a persistent extreme anxiety that dominates every waking moment of my life...
 
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Aglossa

Aglossa

Member
Oct 8, 2024
46
I definitely have a combinations of several of the characteristics described, depending on my current mood. Most of the time I am probably mostly dissociative (especially when on meds) with drops of melancholic. In some periods, I am very melancholic especially with regards to guilt, worthlessness hopelessness. If I am having a mini crisis about some stupid problem I begin to become impulsive, self harming, extremely hateful towards myself and detached from others.
 
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hauntyoueveryday

hauntyoueveryday

Member
Jun 15, 2024
59
probably #3
 
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Trav1989

Experienced
Jun 2, 2024
247
I honestly find this kind of silly; not going to lie, about as silly as the Myers-Briggs test and Astrology.
 
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WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,796
I'm a mix of 4, 2, 3. In that order. Anxious that my situation will continue to get worse, melancholic over the loss of my old life, and I tend to disassociate as a way of coping with it all.
 
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Major Tom

Major Tom

I found heaven in hell
Feb 24, 2024
71
I'll have one number 2, a number 3 large, a number 4 while feeling extra trapped, ….

I feel really weird right now.

Isn't there also a happy, confident and exited suicidal type?
 
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sugarb

sugarb

thief of silent dreams
Jun 14, 2024
794
I'm 2 (Long-term planning, Anhedonia, hopelessness) and 3 (Depersonalization, Emotional dissociation, Feeling of emptiness). Maybe a 40%-60% split between those, I spend most of my time very dissociative
 
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mysteryboy

mysteryboy

Member
Feb 8, 2024
49
I resonate with the melancholic suicidal type, but will hopefully recover from these unbearable symptoms
 
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Adûnâi

Adûnâi

Little Russian in-cel
Apr 25, 2020
1,242
1 - Aggressive: expresses their suicidal ideation impulsively and angrily (Impulsivity / Irritability / Self-mutilation / Troubled relationships with others).
2 - Melancholic: introspective and silent about their feelings. Melancholy is associated with deep sadness and extreme despondency (Anhedonia / Hopelessness / Guilt and worthlessness / Long-term planning).
3 - Dissociative or apathetic: they don't show many emotions. They seem disconnected from the world around them and from their own emotions.(Depersonalization / Emotional dissociation / Feeling of emptiness)
4 - Anxious: Suicidal ideation in this profile is often related to extreme anxiety and constant fear.(Obsessive thoughts / Panic attacks / Feeling "trapped")
5 - Manipulative or ambivalent: Although rarer, some patients may use suicidal ideation as a form of emotional manipulation, usually to get attention or support from family members or partners.(Repeated threats / Ambivalence)
I want attention, alright? Also, handholding and sex. Not with my mom or a goat though, those wouldn't count.

I do feel fake in everything I do, so YMMV.
 
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losingsteam3141

Grad Student USA
Aug 30, 2024
82
Mix of anxious and melancholic, my suicidality is mostly situational although I have suffered from depression since I was 14
 
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WildAtHeart

WildAtHeart

tired
Oct 1, 2024
144
mainly 2 but i also have some obsessive thoughts and also dont show much emotion.
 
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depthss

depthss

wikihow
Dec 12, 2023
233
if i have to put it into a box, i would say 1 is pretty accurate for me
 
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Abyssal

Abyssal

Probably gonna die soon maybe?
Nov 26, 2023
1,326
All of them basically, whether in different states of suicidality or different times in my life.

5 is probably the least, but in my early suicidality I did everything I could to end the pain even if it meant scaring others into getting my way. It actually worked more than once, but I've grown into someone who experiences immense guilt and also has recognized that those methods are temporary solutions.
 
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