lillmonix3
Death as an end in itself
- Aug 14, 2023
- 97
It was always interesting what methods you use.And how do you hide it.
Personally, I cut myself and also starve myself .
Personally, I cut myself and also starve myself .
Once I wanted to cut one picture with cats on my hand . I would attach the image, but I don't know if it is possible to publish it hereused to cut myself on my thighs, once cut a big pentagram on my arm. i managed to hide the pentagram for a whole year :D
I was afraid of being triggered by clicking on the photo but in the end I found it cute (What's wrong with me). You should try to become a tattoo artist. (also I love your username )Once I wanted to cut one picture with cats on my hand . I would attach the image, but I don't know if it is possible to publish it here
I will try to attach it here.This should be my reference.
My blade is very sharp, but I can't make brackets, I just can't cut a circle or even a semicircle.
Thank you . Maybe you know where this name comes from if you played ddlc.I was afraid of being triggered by clicking on the photo but in the end I found it cute (What's wrong with me). You should try to become a tattoo artist. (also I love your username )
Monika's twitter. I love this gameThank you . Maybe you know where this name comes from if you played ddlc.
I wish Monika would just delete my file from this game called LifeMonika's twitter. I love this game
Hmmm, quite interesting. Sounds like something I should try.I still thought, what will be the feeling of applying peppermint spray or gel on the wound?(outside of starving) I have a pretty nice method, imo. I make myself some peppermint tea (my favorite) and I use the hot metal spoon in the cup to press against my wrist. So far, it's left no burn marks or bruising, but also I don't have the pain tolerance or courage to do it while it's pipping hot. Just hot enough to hurt.
Also the peppermint feels good on my skin afterwards. Tingly ~
Personally, for me, this is a way to postpone the date of ctb a little. Because I'm still looking for a normal method and to avoid doing it in the worst way, I'd rather cut myself than impulsively do something wrong and end up a vegetable.Honestly, self-harm is not something that I can understand.
Is it self guilt, that you feel like punishing yourself with extra pain, or masochism?
The pain some people are going through is enough imo.
Ctb is meant to end the suffering of ones pain.
Why to add more suffering? o.o
In my mind I can't see self-harm doing for me anything better for the moment to postpone my ctb.Personally, for me, this is a way to postpone the date of ctb a little. Because I'm still looking for a normal method and to avoid doing it in the worst way, I'd rather cut myself than impulsively do something wrong and end up a vegetable.
For myself, I consider between a jump, a partial hang, SN.
I usually just attach myself up with my hands 'till a bleed, or press my nail down on my arm real hard and drag it across my arm and peel off the skin. I got a what I think is a permanent scar on my arm from the second one. I also tied a string around my neck and pulled as hard as a I can to try to strangle myself because I was desperate after failing the night-night method like 5 times and that left a mark that hasn't gone away yet after like 3 monthsIt was always interesting what methods you use.And how do you hide it.
Personally, I cut myself and also starve myself .
Same!! I actually did move onto burning myself with exacto knife after heating it up with the lighter on the inner parts of my forearms. I try not to make it look obvious since for me people finding out will be worse than anything so I save it for when I'm having really bad time, but I still have a scar from couple of years ago for the burn when I pressed into the skin too long the one time. Usually if you remove the blade fast enough you still have that burn feel and some marks but it doesn't last long enough to make it obvious to others, so you can do it repeatedly without getting caught.i wasnt ever really able to "cut" myself, because the razor i had was too dull + i tried it once and it.. really hurt. like the wuss i was, i just continued to use the very dull razor i had. i would then scratch up my thighs/wrists until my skin grew red, and the cuts would raise up from my skin. if i went particularly hard i could bleed, but it wasnt too often.
i dont really do it a lot anymore, because i suppose i just forgot about it one day or something. its a bit strange. i want to try something new, though, something more hurtful—like getting the razor and heating it up with a lighter, then pressing it to my skin. leave a few nasty burns.
that sounds good to know! i actually attempted what i described above for the first time, today.. and it pretty much failed. no marks, only a slight burn. i think it was just because i couldnt get the blade hot enough, due to the fact that its only a razor without a handle. even waved it through the fire back and forth, and still nothing—not hot enough. i've made a couple notes to myself for that reason.Same!! I actually did move onto burning myself with exacto knife after heating it up with the lighter on the inner parts of my forearms. I try not to make it look obvious since for me people finding out will be worse than anything so I save it for when I'm having really bad time, but I still have a scar from couple of years ago for the burn when I pressed into the skin too long the one time. Usually if you remove the blade fast enough you still have that burn feel and some marks but it doesn't last long enough to make it obvious to others, so you can do it repeatedly without getting caught.
Self-harm intuitively seems to increase suffering, but contrarily, it aims to reduce it. Imagine feeling like you're going mad and anything would be better to concentrate on than suffering so badly mentally. Then what do you do? Some of us smoke cigarettes, do drugs, cut, burn ourselves or whatever. Doesn't really matter if it hurts or makes you sick as long as it grabs your attention from worse things.Honestly, self-harm is not something that I can understand.
Is it self guilt, that you feel like punishing yourself with extra pain, or masochism?
The pain some people are going through is enough imo.
Ctb is meant to end the suffering of ones pain.
Why to add more suffering? o.o
oh i love peppermint tea! I've done something similar by using a lighter to heat up my self harm knife and then burn myself with it. The sensation is surprising but it feels good. I like the idea of using the peppermint tea spoon though, i might try it(outside of starving) I have a pretty nice method, imo. I make myself some peppermint tea (my favorite) and I use the hot metal spoon in the cup to press against my wrist. So far, it's left no burn marks or bruising, but also I don't have the pain tolerance or courage to do it while it's pipping hot. Just hot enough to hurt.
Also the peppermint feels good on my skin afterwards. Tingly ~