Venting How do you feel fulfilled?

[wandafurudayz]

I could have everything I want and STILL want to die. I think there is something wrong with my brain. I'm so tired of being bored and jaded of things i use to love.
people change and stuff, so i should find new interests. but everything is so boring. I hate having Tourette's, I hate taking stupid pills, I hate being bullied, I hate my cousin, I hate the fact that I got groomed so many times! this shit is annoying and quite frankly I'm fed up. Death, Starving, or cutting myself is literally all I think about these days. non stop. 24/7.

I'm so great at wallowing in depression and self pity I need a gold medal.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

For me personally, I always felt better when I had someone I could spend time with; either a friend or a romantic partner. But, unfortunately, it just doesn't seem to last. I think if I had someone who could be there I would be able to get better, but realistically it's too much to put on someone. So… yeah.

 

[brokeandbroken]

I could have everything I want and STILL want to die. I think there is something wrong with my brain. I'm so tired of being bored and jaded of things i use to love.
people change and stuff, so i should find new interests. but everything is so boring. I hate having Tourette's, I hate taking stupid pills, I hate being bullied, I hate my cousin, I hate the fact that I got groomed so many times! this shit is annoying and quite frankly I'm fed up. Death, Starving, or cutting myself is literally all I think about these days. non stop. 24/7.

I'm so great at wallowing in depression and self pity I need a gold medal.

I think this a question people ask both in here and in life. The issue is the answer is different for everyone. Some people find fulfillment in their career, some in romantic partners/family, some in religion, some in hobbies, interests, and passions. It's why people find meaning in things like veganism, athletics, or pretty much anything else. Everyone isn't a carbon copy so it's impossible to say this will make you fulfilled. It's up to you to figure it out. Maybe the best recipe is thing + community + feeling good about it in some way. I'm not a vegan but I suppose for it is something like veganism -> community of other vegans + the knowledge you aren't eating animals makes you feel good inside that you aren't eating clarabelle = fulfillment. It's why you also see some people have mid life crises and suddenly get really into X or people switch things they are really passionate about. They are chasing fulfillment/meaning.

As an aside it really sucks when you've find it and it's stolen from you. People say they couldn't live a life without passion and I agree. It's like removing your person from your person. You are a shell of yourself.

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

If I knew the answer, I wouldn't be here.

Life is meaningless. I don't think it is possible to feel fulfilled when you know that.

 

[F@#$]

I don't ever feel fulfilled.

 

[Ethel]

I find fulfillment in city exploration and music,although pain is enjoyable

Being present through a song really calms the mind,I think

 

[Davey40210]

I wish I knew. I have so many options at the moment. More money I can ever spend, my full health and brains. And yet I still just think about CTB non stop.

I can only imagine what would happen once I start to be old and my health starts declining.

 

[iloveloving]

Pleasing others.