So in two weeks I have my window of opportunity to ctb. However, I signed up for a few things like jobs and internships. I'll get a good idea of where my life is heading by December. Only problem is that in December if things don't work out my next opportunity to ctb would be in a year. But that plan is better because there is less of a chance of my being discovered. Here's the caveat, I have to live for another year. Do I end things in two weeks or wait a year to do a better plan? With my luck I'm not getting the job or the internship so I'll have to wait another miserable year.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 38,967
That sounds like a difficult situation to be in and it must be frustrating knowing that you cannot just leave at any time you wish to. But anyway I wish you the best in whatever happens going forward.
I decided to just do it in two weeks. I've never had anything work out for me so why would I assume this time that it would be different. I have nothing going for me. I've been suicidal for years and made a lot of failed attempts. Maybe this time I'll succeed.
Moburin 29
Just a random background character
- Sep 17, 2023
- 39
Well I guess it depends on what kind of person you are and your previous history. I don't know you well enough to judge.
For example, if I was in similar situation, I know for sure that I would hesitate and fail at the last moment just because of this little chance that it will get better.
So yeah, do you think it can stop you?
For example, if I was in similar situation, I know for sure that I would hesitate and fail at the last moment just because of this little chance that it will get better.
So yeah, do you think it can stop you?
I think that I'll still be depressed. I'll just be depressed with a job. I should do it in Two weeks. That's what I planned for. I'm a fuck up so I'm afraid that I'll fail.
Moburin 29
Just a random background character
- Sep 17, 2023
- 39
Don't be too hard on yourself.
Any stuff on your bucket list that you want to do during these two weeks?
Any stuff on your bucket list that you want to do during these two weeks?
I've thought about it and I think for the next two weeks I'm going to eat good food and drink some beer. When it comes time for me to ctb I will drink a bottle of whiskey and listen to some good music.
Moburin 29
Just a random background character
- Sep 17, 2023
- 39
