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BlazingBob

BlazingBob

Wizard
Oct 28, 2021
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I'm distraught over losing my babies. One died in my arms a week ago. He was my best friend. My mom could go at any time or so I hear. She's vicious and has wanted nothing to do with me. My crime was being born. When is it my fucking turn?
 
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AbusedInnocent

AbusedInnocent

Enemy brain ain't cooperating
Apr 5, 2024
255
I can't imagine how that must feel, I've lost many cats before and I really miss them even though we didn't have much time to get to know each other, I really wish it could have been me and not them, if I lost a dog I would probably break down completely.

If you have other pets do you worry about losing them as well?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,150
I just wish to not exist as well, I only hope to never exist again, in my case existing truly has only ever caused me to suffer. But anyway I hope you find peace.
 
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Worndown

Angelic
Mar 21, 2019
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When mom is gone you may find some peace. Not all children are blessed with kind and caring parents. Their passing can finally relieve stresses that haunt them.
How many dogs lived with you?
 
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ceilng_tile

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Jan 13, 2024
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I'm so sorry about your dogs and about how your mom treated you.
 
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BlazingBob

BlazingBob

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Oct 28, 2021
616
I can't imagine how that must feel, I've lost many cats before and I really miss them even though we didn't have much time to get to know each other, I really wish it could have been me and not them, if I lost a dog I would probably break down completely.

If you have other pets do you worry about losing them as well?
I have one dog left and the thought of losing him is terrifying because my dogs were the closest thing to a family I had and my reason to keep going. Once he goes is when I plan to ctb. Chronic physical and mental health problems have plagued me for years and I'm just sick of fighting a war I can't win, and doing it completely alone.
I'm so sorry about your dogs and about how your mom treated you.
Thank you🙂
I'm so sorry about your dogs and about how your mom treated you.
Thank you🙂
When mom is gone you may find some peace. Not all children are blessed with kind and caring parents. Their passing can finally relieve stresses that haunt them.
How many dogs lived with you?
Three. I have one left. He has kidney disease and dementia. He's 17.
 
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CatLvr

Enlightened
Aug 1, 2024
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When mom is gone you may find some peace. Not all children are blessed with kind and caring parents. Their passing can finally relieve stresses that haunt them.
How many dogs lived with you?
This was true of me. I was actually shocked at how relieved I was when I learned that my mother had passed away. It took me a minute to realize why a 50-something year old woman would feel such relief at that news. I broke down in tears and my husband, who knows the WHOLE sordid tale of my life while she was in it, asked me why I was so sad. But I wasn't crying because I was sad. I was crying because for the first time in my life I felt safe.

@BlazingBob you might be surprised at the emotion you have when your mother passes. I know I was. I have mourned over every pet I have lost than I have over any people, save two, that have gone on before me.
 

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