TW! sh pics blood alot tw!!

[alixisbonez]

This is what caused me to go into hypovolemic shock
This was terrifying I only did it because I thought I was gonna die witch I was minutes away from
I've been numb I haven't cried but I tried to sleep in my bed tonight but I just broke down I couldn't every time I shut my eyes I feel like I'm dieing again I feel like I'm there in my bed surrounded by my own blood
Idk how to be ok and sleep in my own room

Spoiler: TW: Self harm cuts, lots of blood

tf that wasn't even all of the blood half of it wason the towel and I bled more after I took pics here's the stitches I got 5 without freezing because I'm scared of medical needles and was crying because I already had to get needles *ironic considering the fact id just cut myself open lol* I'm still super pale and my head still hurts I keep getting super dizzy when I do stuff and walk around but it should get better in the next couple days I'm also back on my meds

 

[Pale_Rider]

Amazing so much leakage from such a small cut. it's actually a big cut.

 

[alixisbonez]

Amazing so much leakage from such a small cut. it's actually a big cut.

Yeah I was surprised to have hit an artery because I hit muscle in the spot beside it before this was only to the deep fat layer I wish It could have been deeper making it longer would have been a bit harder because of angles but ya I'm kinda excited to see how it scars
This is when I cut for the second time after I cleaned it and it and really started to bleed alot not even three minutes after I took that vid my grandma found me passed out and called 911*t
TW i really do not recommend this at all don't try it is not easy to do and alot of the time won't work and will only have you traumatized and affect you physically and mentally
Alot more of my arm is numb now I can't sleep In my bed or sleep at all really and it was scary for me and my family don't fucking do it please! It is genuinely traumatizing I can't close my eyes or as I said b4 I can't lay in my own bed without seeing all my blood on me and my bed and feeling myself in a bed of my own blood dieing

Spoiler: TW: Self harm cuts, lots of blood

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