Venting tw: sh. i'm tired of this absurdity

[asecretexit]

I just got quite a cut after trying to take the blades from a safety razor, something I have done time and time again with no injury, but today I was desperate. Soon got knocked out of that desperation when I sliced my finger deep- ouch. I don't think it's that bad that I need to go to hospital but that initial shock of seeing your finger split, knocks me sick. I am a bit squeamish when it comes to accidental injury, go figure.

I was already in a pretty fragile mindset, the sort of mindset where a little cut has just affirmed all the damning thoughts I had that lead me to almost relapse. This world is funny, and cruel, and utterly absurd. I need to get over my squeamishness and fear and find a way out.

 

[Nicothe13th]

Use Carbon Monoxide dude, can go out listening to some music in a comfy place, it's as good as it gets I think.

But make sure you've thought it all through, I hope you make it out of this alive ❤