Tuesday

[It’s Time To Go]

I'm done.

Everything has gone, and is going wrong for me.

Precursor: Diagnoses of EUPD &OCD.

Haven't taken "medication" in about 7 months.

Cut my wrists a few weeks ago, was going to OD a couple of weeks ago, but filth (police) found me and took what I had.

Anxiety has been strangling me, depression has been torturing me, but the feeling of being trapped (since they took what I had) is like nothing I've felt before.

I've now decided on jumping.

I have two places in mind: One will be BRUTAL, and will maybe make international news, the other is harsh.

But I believe that of all of the methods, jumping is the warrior's exit. It demonstrates just how broken a person is, and the lengths they are willing to go to to exit this shitty world.

I DO believe in reincarnation (I know it's a fact) so I'm looking forward to beginning my new life. I'm not living now, I'm barely existing.

Can't, and won't take it anymore.

I always look at the weather, and Tuesday is forecast to be sunny. I want to exit on a nice day, as my "life" is pure darkness.

Anyway, just wanted to share this.

This will be militant, hardcore, no fucking about and final.

Would love to hear from any of you.

Really can't do this anymore.

Sending love x

 

[jimmy7754]

I'm so sorry. I hope your wishes for a better life come true. I do have a hard time believing this is all there is.. it's not all too comforting to believe in eternal nothingness.. unfortunately we won't be there to experience it aye? That's what makes us all cringe.

 

[It’s Time To Go]

I'm so sorry. I hope your wishes for a better life come true. I do have a hard time believing this is all there is.. it's not all too comforting to believe in eternal nothingness.. unfortunately we won't be there to experience it aye? That's what makes us all cringe.

I love you.

 

[JustSomeDude]

You are loved, at least by us

 

[It’s Time To Go]

The feeling is growing.

I know this is the right, and logical thing to do.

Who on earth would suffer for longer than they had to? That makes no sense to me.

I'm doing the right thing.
I'm getting excited, and I haven't felt excited for a long time.

I'm a "serial overdoser" and have been sectioned 25 times in 4 years, but now I'm feeling the urge again.

I know this is the right thing to do.

It's logical, right?

 

[silverspring]

I've also been unmedicated since maybe... August? Maybe it was July. I don't know anymore. Gave up on them because I felt there was no point in feeling well when I have nothing in life to be well for. Have been on the fence about returning to my meds on and off for the last few weeks. One moment I think I should be on them again, because one of my meds actually helps with physical pain issues, and since I've stopped my meds, I've been in agony. Then, the next moment I feel like maybe I deserve this pain, so I just keep being in it and not taking the meds. Anyway: I am sorry you're feeling so terrible. I see you and feel you. Take care

 

[It’s Time To Go]

I've also been unmedicated since maybe... August? Maybe it was July. I don't know anymore. Gave up on them because I felt there was no point in feeling well when I have nothing in life to be well for. Have been on the fence about returning to my meds on and off for the last few weeks. One moment I think I should be on them again, because one of my meds actually helps with physical pain issues, and since I've stopped my meds, I've been in agony. Then, the next moment I feel like maybe I deserve this pain, so I just keep being in it and not taking the meds. Anyway: I am sorry you're feeling so terrible. I see you and feel you. Take care

I believe we are special.

We are chosen ones.

This world, this planet, and all it "offers" does does fulfill us.

Thus, we are of a higher beings.

I don't know what we were put down here for? Maybe to correlate data, to feed back to our tribe?

All I know is that us/we who think and see "differently" are of a higher power that these average "human beings."

They are pathetic. Willing to wake up, day to day, and happy to perform the same actions over, and over again.

That is quite simply not enough for me.

I see them a futile fools, lemmings, if you wish.

Yet we, you and I are deemed the "wrong" ones.

"Unwell!"

The logic is corrupt, and we can never educate these "people."

I would like to say that I feel for them, but I don't. Let them continue to waste their time.

People like myself, and many others on this site, know the truth.

It's just a matter of having the power to overcome this SI encoded flaw that has been embedded into our brains.

Quite cruel, really.

 

[silverspring]

I believe we are special.

We are chosen ones.

This world, this planet, and all it "offers" does does fulfill us.

Thus, we are of a higher beings.

I don't know what we were put down here? Maybe to correlate data, to feed back to our tribe?

All I know is that us/we who think and see "differently" are of a higher power that these average "human beings."

They are pathetic. Willing to wake up, day to day, and happy to perform the same actions over, and over again.

That is quite simply not enough for me.

I see them a futile fools, lemmings, if you wish.

Yet we, you and I are deemed the "wrong" ones.

The logic is corrupt, and we can never edu ate these "people."

I would like to say that I feel for them, but I don't. Let them continue to waste their time.

People like myself, and many others on this site, know the truth.

It's just a matter of having the power to overcome this SI encoded flaw that has been embedded into our brains.

Quite cruel, really.

Your words, your thoughts, everything. Words that I think but have never been able to truly convey. Never have thought of myself as special or chosen, but I get it. I've been told by others that I'm too resilient and too cold but also too warm and empathetic for my own good, and it's a storm inside of me most of the time trying to figure out where I stand. Thank YOU for being able to put these thoughts into words and in a different light to see it in. You're a magical blessing for sure and I hope you can see that, at least sometimes.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering so much, I can imagine that it must be unbearable what you are going through. Jumping sounds like a terrifying way to leave this world, but I do envy those who have the courage to end their pain that way. I personally do not want there to be reincarnation, I want nothingness, but I hope you find what you are looking for. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[It’s Time To Go]

Your words, your thoughts, everything. Words that I think but have never been able to truly convey. Never have thought of myself as special or chosen, but I get it. I've been told by others that I'm too resilient and too cold but also too warm and empathetic for my own good, and it's a storm inside of me most of the time trying to figure out where I stand. Thank YOU for being able to put these thoughts into words and in a different light to see it in. You're a magical blessing for sure and I hope you can see that, at least sometimes.

We are special.

We are chosen.

We are perfectly imperfect.

We … are.

I feel a connection to you. Am I "delusional"? By these cunt's terminology, maybe. By a higher power, absolutely not.

You have black, white, Chinese, Indian, Russian, Gay, straight, bi, trans, and they all (rightly so) receive their recognition.

How about us, those who can see beyond the facade that is "life"? We're deemed "unwell" "delusional" or a plethora of other terms.

We are ahead of time.

I'm left handed, and there was a time when I would have been deemed a witch! Would have had my left arm tied to my body, and forced to write with my right hand. Before then, I would have been burned alive!

As I said, the likes of you and I (and many others on this site) are ahead of our time. We know that this place is not for us, and we want out.

I know, I absolutely KNOW that something wonderful is awaiting us. It's just a matter of overcoming this evil hard coded SI firmware that has been implanted into our brains.

But I am DONE. It will take a miracle to prevent me from completing on Tuesday.

Even all of my OCD fears and commands are being told to fuck off. They can't scare me anymore. I know that I'm going to be taking EXTREME action on Tuesday (and believe me, it will be extreme) so the OCD can't hurt me anymore.

I'm glad I helped you to not feel alone.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

I'm sorry you've been suffering; I hope you're able to be free from that in your next life.

Please don't post the locations here, I've seen one member of SS stopped by police and sectioned because they shared their location here and someone reported it to the authorities--but I will admit I'm dead curious what the "brutal" location is. I guess we'll find out if you take that option and succeed...

 

[It’s Time To Go]

I'm sorry you've been suffering; I hope you're able to be free from that in your next life.

Please don't post the locations here, I've seen one member of SS stopped by police and sectioned because they shared their location here and someone reported it to the authorities--but I will admit I'm dead curious what the "brutal" location is. I guess we'll find out if you take that option and succeed...

I'll not share either of the two locations.

Similar methods, but equally rather different.

Both blatant, and a clear demonstration of how much pain, and a failure of a "system" can lead you.

Currently listening to my Exit playlist, fantasising, role playing, detailing all of the logistics.

I haven't been this excited in a long time.

I'm sure you'll see it on the news, put it that way.

I'm going out hardcore, then all of those who have failed me, will be brought to justice. Actually, they have all now given up on me. Weak, unemotional, unprofessional cunts.

If our paths cross in the next life (I doubt they will, as they will surely be going to hell) I'll torture them for eternity.

 

[Seafoam]

You're way braver than me lol. I tried jumping and I couldn't do it. I hope you're able to find the courage. I'd also like to believe that there's more out there than just this life.

 

[lunarflower]

Much love to you, I hope you're successful in whatever you choose and that you find peace and happiness in your next life.

 

[It’s Time To Go]

Much love to you, I hope you're successful in whatever you choose and that you find peace and happiness in your next life.

Same to you.

I read your post about your family disowning you.

They don't deserve you.

 

[lunarflower]

Same to you.

I read your post about your family disowning you.

They don't deserve you.

Thank you

 

[Someone123]

I am very sorry you are in so much pain; so am I, I hope I can follow through within a few months but I keep postponing based on fear of the consequences of a failed attempt, Just wondering about the height- some people say a minimum of ten stories to be confident of it working, some say twenty stories is best- who knows? The Golden Gate bridge is 220 feet over water, so dorowning is a backup plan, with a 99% success rate for thos who jump, but it's alsmot impossible to jump there now due to security- I would do that if I could, but I won't there. Jumping from a high enough height is one of the most reliabvle methods, but make sure you don't land on a car or tree, that can ruin it, and also try to go when no people are below, though if someone walks out at thw rong time that can be a risk if from building.