Help Trying to talk the SI out of myself.

[notmyusername]

I know I have no hope. The longer I stay here, the more mess I will cause. I'm a failure. I seriously need to leave. I have always been scared of death. I know life is a rare experience. It sucks that this was mine, but it isn't going to get any better. I wish my heart didn't beat so fast when I think of ending my life. People have done it before me, I'm not the first one or last to do something like this. I am still hung up on my old dreams. Dreams of having a family someday, completing my collections, making robots, having a job I'd love some day. I am believing in something false at this point. These things are extremely unlikely to happen, what is more likely is that my life will continue to get worse, and I'll hurt a lot of people if I stick around. I have to make the right choice. I can't be scared. I worry I'll be missing out, but in reality, none of this matters.

 

[mortuarymary]

You ain't ready. Plus you're not a failure

 

[notmyusername]

You ain't ready. Plus you're not a failure

I am a failure. You don't know the harm I've caused. It is selfish to stay alive. I have a noose. I have time. My family is away for a few hours, and this doesn't happen often.

 

[mortuarymary]

No i don't. I can't sway you either way. Have you got kids? Who do you want to find you? Think about all of this first.

 

[notmyusername]

No i don't. I can't sway you either way. Have you got kids? Who do you want to find you? Think about all of this first.

I don't have kids. I am an extreme burden to my family. I'm going to find a place in the woods to do it, I pray my family doesn't witness my body. I urge them not to look for me in my note, let the police handle it.

 

[nobody11]

You cant

 

[mortuarymary]

I don't have kids. I am an extreme burden to my family. I'm going to find a place in the woods to do it, I pray my family doesn't witness my body. I urge them not to look for me in my note, let the police handle it.

I respect that decisio. Make sure you tie all affairs up first.

 

[Dliena]

I wish nothing but peace with whichever decision you choose OP and I'm sorry life has driven you to this point.

 

[Frowny]

Are you still with us? If so, how are you feeling?