Venting Trying to survive, but life keeps beating me down

[Theo]

I've been on medication for a while and made some progress, I thought I'd finally be okay this time but then an unexpected disaster just had to happen.

Floods around this time in my area isn't anything new but it never got anywhere near this scale (2.5m/ 8.2ft when the typical floods were around 70-80cm/ 2.6ft). I know I'm not the only one screwed but it sucks so much and my mental's wrecked again because my electric motorcycle which I ride to work is irreparable and I can't afford a replacement so I've been using Grab (It's like Uber in Vietnam) to get to work since there aren't bus stops near me nor where I work and it costs half my daily pay. As if all of those things weren't bad enough, my computer decided to die too and now I can't even play games in my free time to relieve some stress. I'm trying my best to stay for my cats and family but it just sucks so much.

 

[At The Bus Stop]

It's crazy isn't? When does whatever is deciding that one is deserving of this, say that it is enough?

Might be my pessimistic take on everything, but I always have that thought of "just my luck" with everything nowadays. Just so tired to even attempt to find a silver lining behind the smoke and flames.

I saw a tiktok video a week or so ago, say something along the lines of .. "The day I lose my battle, it's because life never got tired of beating me, until death came and hugged me and said now you'll be at peace".. makes me wonder sometimes if that's what's needed to feel that sense of relief.

I hope you're able to get the flood dealt with, and figure out a way of getting you and your electric bike back on the road. Whilst it looks bleak now, maybe a hint of positivity is round the corner for you. I'm proud of your progress so far.

 

[whywere]

OMG!!!

My heart and soul go out to you so VERY much.

Just looking at your photos made me so sad, and I hope and pray that you can recover as quickly as possible.

Tons of well wishes to you and your family.

Walter

 

[itsgone2]

I'm so sorry. I experienced floods growing up and it's so awful.
It's a burden you shouldn't have. Again I'm so sorry. Praying something good come your way.