Trying to have the courage to go through with it

[budbud29]

I hate having a conscience. I hate thinking of my head. Things could get better. I don't wanna think that way I feel it's just prolonging the inevitable. I wake up and think to myself what's the point of waking up today. I wish I wasn't scared to do it. But my conscience keeps getting in the way. I wish I was fully committed to doing this, but I'm conflicted. How do I get over this? How can I just make the decision without overthinking it? I'm 29. I live at home with family. I don't have a job. I have nothing going on in my life no friends no girlfriend. I have no purpose of waking up in the morning. I'm afraid to leave my house. The decision should be easy for me to make but it's still a difficult decision. Does anyone know how I can just go through with it?

 

[isthisthingon]

It's all in our head. I'm currently with you on this. I can end it any moment, yet I wait and suffer inside more. I need to get it over with.