Trying to get a job after decades of not working

[LetMeOut67]

Even though I suffer very very severe depression I can no longer cope with chronic isolation and being at home all the time. I'm trying to get a job delivering for Amazon using an ebike.
I know it's a crummy job but my lifestyle is driving me insane. I'm not social at all so this is just about the only job I can do.
The mental health services told me to go to social gatherings with people also suffering mentally but I tried it once and hated it.
I don't need people or even friends I just need to be occupied.
If I do start work and I cannot cope then I'll definitely have to CTB. My existence has become hellish and I just think the world itself is absolutely repulsive.

 

[timf]

Some types of volunteer work might be a starting point. You might be able to find something that has activity, but less social contact. It may even be something that can be scheduled to fit what you prefer.

 

[rainatthebusstop]

I wish you the best of luck in getting a job. Sometimes it's better to seek a routine and structure instead of social contacts. Especially with other mentally unwell people

 

[Grav]

Good luck. If you can focus on your work it has a hidden side effect, people will say "wow that person is super motivated!" when in reality it may be "if I don't work I'm out".