I can't do this shit anymore, I can't fucking keep a job, autism adhd and dyslexia make my life a living hell. I don't feel anything except pain.
I don't love my parents, my dad doesn't want me to kill myself because I quote: "aren't suffering enough to grant it". My parents say they love me every time I see them, but I feel nothing in return. My brothers are kinda chill, but I still don't feel anything for them. I constantly dream about killing them or myself, sometimes both.
If I am going to kill myself (very likely) I would like a way to be able to do it without my parents or brothers ever finding my body (prob gonna take a 12 gauge and stick it in my mouth) because of how'd they prob react.
Any ideas?
I don't love my parents, my dad doesn't want me to kill myself because I quote: "aren't suffering enough to grant it". My parents say they love me every time I see them, but I feel nothing in return. My brothers are kinda chill, but I still don't feel anything for them. I constantly dream about killing them or myself, sometimes both.
If I am going to kill myself (very likely) I would like a way to be able to do it without my parents or brothers ever finding my body (prob gonna take a 12 gauge and stick it in my mouth) because of how'd they prob react.
Any ideas?
