Bitterman1996
Student
- May 20, 2020
- 172
I don't know how to put it any other way but creative process in general is hell especially when you rely on it to communicate and form relationship with people. I am not an interesting person.
I don't know how to communicate like normal people... especially online where posting art publically means you can't just be yourself. it's hard to find words. I know people who are candid online able to form connection well, I'm just not those people. I overthink what i should say too much and ended up not being nice / overly stiff to hear. it sucks.
I do want to hear what other people think of my works, but i still feel depressed by it. my job search not going well. I feel my drawing going stale and how futile it is/ Even if something arguably good happened, I still feel de[ressed/ I know it doesnt make sense but I feel really suicidal rn/ but i cant kill myself yet. i resolved to live but it;s still hard. to keep going.
I don't know how to communicate like normal people... especially online where posting art publically means you can't just be yourself. it's hard to find words. I know people who are candid online able to form connection well, I'm just not those people. I overthink what i should say too much and ended up not being nice / overly stiff to hear. it sucks.
I do want to hear what other people think of my works, but i still feel depressed by it. my job search not going well. I feel my drawing going stale and how futile it is/ Even if something arguably good happened, I still feel de[ressed/ I know it doesnt make sense but I feel really suicidal rn/ but i cant kill myself yet. i resolved to live but it;s still hard. to keep going.
